Onyx Night

Working part time in the Bar

Cam-whoring in the third floor no ppl bar
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Take 3

Went Onyx just to see Lion Dance at 130am. However, we enjoyed ourselves there.
Bet a can of pepsi with june with the number of guys who gonna flirt Shirly tonight.
Right after we had an agreement, a man came. I knew i will lost the bet because the night is still so YOUNG. Managed to bring the broken-Hearted man aka Lennard with my beer + mentos.
As a result, flu intensified today because I havent got enough sleep. MSN ring ring early in the morning. lol.
Far behind my schedule for assignments. Will continue my work after gym session today. Yosh!

Fail number N times

I am born to fail.
To fail your hope and failing mine too.
After been through all the failures, I am a whole made up of pieces.
Just thinking it is ridiculous when my group mates said I would make my family proud.
I have failed others N times and even I don't believe myself anymore. Why should you?

~Continuing To Fail~

Chill~

Being abused by a Vietnamese guy, who likes to force things happening in his own way. He forced me to meet him in library, forced me to help him to his english essay, forced me to eat his biscuit, forced me to listen to his stories about his gf, interrogated me about the girl he is stalking. I can only say I owed him before life. This is a debt that is to be paid by LIFE.

Kinda free after assignment months.
Still got few deadlines to meet this month.
To Do List:
Finish off Management Assignment which dues 22th Feb.
Finishing First Stage of our Automobile Design Project which dues in 2 weeks time.
Aiming to finish an assignment which dues in April @.@
Gonna gain some weight, starting by going to gym tomorrow.

Decided:
Quit 148 Dinner Group Temporarily after this week.

Done:
Chilling out in my room.
Suddenly felt I'm like a dust, small and useless. Will be forgotten after being blown by wind. Wish I could do more~

Dad said: Make the decisions yourself. Turn left or right, fully on you. Bear the consequences yourself. He is a man of great wisdom. Respect.

I've gained the courage to take a step further on my own today.

Unexpected Present

Few emails of the present reminds me of the past.

Last two years were years of great depression, when I was living in boredom, fear and darkness. With no one to talk to, with nowhere to go in extreme weather. In many situation that I have too much freedom and too much choices to be made, there were nothing much for you to grab on when you fall.

But there is a man whom I don't know completely, sent me emails and bring me messages about God. I am much inspired and motivated after reading his testimonies about God, but never found out who he really is until last few weeks. www.jameslau88.com

A complete random man could inspire another stranger. Amazing things happen all the time. I asked and prayed for changes in life. In return, I would serve God. As a result, no matter how busy I am, no matter how bad the situation is, no matter how tired I am, I would overcome any obstacles when time is right.

I asked for surprises before last year ends, and I've got more than expected. I would never stop asking from now. Give thanks for every unexpected present that is given.

Never stop praying.

Fear

When every senses of yours have been provoked in a place you familiar with,
which reminds you of good memories which you could never have again,
regrets and disappointment taking over.
Above all, I heard a voice which guides me, solves my problems and soothes my heart.
When I found myself in despair, I could overcome the feelings quicker than I could.
I will not borrow the time of the past to visualize my future.
I've gained strength to push and pull someone further.
I will stay put until I am given wings to fly.

Today is a special day, when fear was replaced with joy within short period of time.
Psalm 103:17
Their children will know that he always does what is right, and He always loves those who keep his covenant.
Give thanks =)

Just ate 9 drumsticks today. Incredibly hungry for no reason.
Yuyu, I'll quote what you've wrote today as it motivates lots.. hehe.
http://yuyu-76.blogspot.com/

1st Interview

1st job interview today. Prepared at 1045 and found out both my cheap shoes bought at Sunderland are both right shoes. Shouldn't buy anything from closing down shop next time =(
Walked to town to buy new ones with my left leg wearing right shoe. Looks crippled coz head of the shoe twisted 45 degrees to the left on my left foot. LOL.
Managed to reach interview place on time but waited for interviewer for 1 hours plus cause himself was late for an hour. ZZ
Not a good week for me. In bad bad luck~
Hoping will be fine next week

忘记背后

主耶稣 我的生命一团糟
何以，我竭力做对 但我又跌到
想好好去做 偏偏又未做够好
承诺今天开始改过 说完又退步
怎祈祷 错失的才可弥补
何以 我每次做错总有你怀抱
很想走窄路 很希望变好
回望一生之中铺满了尘土

忘记我背后
遥望这标杆已在前头
或者又做错 不怕撑起来继续走
神赐我自由 从今一切不可变能够
这日未能做到别放手
别回望往日多少内疚
来到白昼。

可能吗 我怎可如此崇高
凭我血气最后也不够我达到
只等他带路 等他为你铺
无尽伤感于今天化作祈祷

忘记我背后
遥望这标杆已在前头
或者又做错 不怕撑起来继续走
神赐我自由 从今一切不可变能够
这日未能做到别放手
别回望往日多少内疚
来到白昼。

忘记我背后
朝着这标杆继续漫游
定睛十字架 不怕撑起来继续走
难过别泪流 耶稣今已称呼我朋友
这日未能做到别放手
别回望往日多少内疚
如今已得救