Thank You Dear

It was again a depressing morning when I woke up. Nth else to do, so I turned on the laptop and watched some drama. Was supposed to go to school, but "Bo feel". Skipped Engineering Maths seminar, Lecture and (English class<< dono for wat the insist me to take tiz class). Went to Gala in the afternoon. At first, me n my sis just thinking of collecting a stamp on a card from Gala Casino(after collecting 4 stamps, we will get a guaranteed win scratch card which will win us lots of great prizes). Then her bf followed, then it ended up with them gambling again.. They won 55 pounds from the slot machine.. LOL. But tat wasn't enuf to cover their previous night de loss: 180 pounds(they went out when I was about to sleep). Decided to walk around after tat. They brought me to Sunderland Muzeum, 3 floors, many interesting things inside. When we all wanted to go pee pee, the only toilet we could find was for disabled person one. When they were looking for the way to switch on the light, my sis bf accidentally pulled the red string, which was designed for the disabled person to seek for help when they had problems inside the toilet. The alarm RANG!! Just imagine a quiet surrounding with the ALARMMM!!. Luckily no one was around. A guard came and turned it off. LOL... Paisehhh.... Quickly, we escaped from the museum and went to the park nearby. It was such a lovely park with ducks swimming in the water, pigeons flying around, couples sitting on the chairs, and dogs running around. Went to the playground and met a lovely little girl. When we were cycling on the merry-go-round( have to cycle for the whole thing to rotate), she just came silently. We stopped and the little girl climbed onto the sit and joined our ride.... Wheeeee~~~ After 2 or 3 mins, her mother came, probably scared by bunch of crazy person like us, asking the little girl to go home. The little girl was reluctant to leave tat her mother gave to carry her in arms by force(the little girl grabbed the steering wheel tightly). Such a lovely girl who keeps me laughing coz her face was full of dried saliva and "pi sai"... hahahah......
Went to buy some vege and grapes. When eating those grapes, I realised something. Last time I bought some green grapes from the same shop, they were damn sweet. This time, I bought some red grapes from the same shop, I expected them to be as sweet as last time. But they just don't. Some sour, some bitter although they all look good. What I could do was to taste them one by one, to get the sweet ones.
Last time when I was studying in Miri, there were more sweet memories than the bitter ones. I had such awesome time with my friends and loved one. Now in a different place and enviroment, although it looks good, but everything I face now is bitter and sour one. I was down and disappointed coz I expect what I get will be as sweet as last time. But thousands of money has been invested. There are no any 2nd chance to turn back like last time. I have to take every responsibility and suffer the consequences of the wrong decision I've made. Taste the bitter and sour ones to find the sweet ones........
My dear Dada, I sincerely thank you for listening and sharing my loads. Just chatting and listening to your voice heals every sadness here. What can I do besides saying thank you x infinity and I love U x infinity..... I hope I can share yours tooo....

Here`s a verse you can always hold on to:"If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you." --John 15:7
Though it`s conditional, it`s still a wonderful giftyou can claim as God`s promise.God is faithful to hear your petitions. Pray is the key, faith unlocks every locked doors. ( From Facebook) =D

~Thank You Dear GOD and Dada)

F***ingly F***ed

Holy shit I am depressed like no other shit in this place. Totally f***ed up as I'm not interested in any of the lecture, I do not know why I'm studying it. F*** f*** zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZzZZzzZzZzzZZzz...
I felt so cheated here.......... things doesnt seem as good as told. I have d "chong dong" to hop onto a plane and go home. Now I miss miri.... Tiz is shittyly shit. Now I miss my friends.... Even miss my laopo more.. =(
I sincerely pray that a truck would knock me down, then somebody else will bring me home, dead or alive.


I wish one day you will miss me terribly that no matter how hard you look for me, you won't find me. Why? Because, I want you to miss me the way I'm missing you today.

EEEEmmmoooo

How the hell can I plunge myself into tiz piece of shit?
Am I in the right course?
Am I in the right place?
Am I being ignorant all the time?
Have I made the right decision?
Can studying abroad really bring a better and happier future?
What if I didn't listen to my parents at the first time?
What if I'm nt being so greedy at the first time?
What if I wasn't expecting too much?
What if I can foresee things?
But, what if never happens.
If it did happen, there are no words such as accidents, tragedies, and regret.
Tiz is life.
Life is just full of shit and ppl just keep on stepping on those shits.
Who can clean away those shits from me?

Expect no one and nothing better than what you have today, the higher the expectation, the greater the disappointment if things doesnt turn out right. Who knows what will happen 2molo?
Mayb worse, mayb better.

HOping the "emo~ness" is just bcoz of the new environment and the situation I'm trying to adapt to.

~Down and emo =( ~

苦

人生苦短，却有许多事能烦。
人们认为快乐的时光总是短暂，是否我们都身在福中不知福？
这个世界就这么不完美。你想得到些什么就不得不失去些什么。
然而，你得到的是否比你失去的值得，
这是每个人都必须学习去衡量的课程。
开心如何？
不开心又如何？
日子照过。

~只盼一切顺心~

《宁愿，爱短短的就好！》

和心爱的人赌气，输赢都没有意义。应该积极用沟通化解歧见，才不会后悔莫及。

Dreams

No internet connection is so troublesome!! Aiks Aiks Aiks...ZzzzZzzz.....

Went to Middlesbrough last tuesday. It took 1 hour train from sunderland to middlesbrough and another 20 mins walk to my school. When I reached the gate of my school, I suddenly realised that it isn't about achieving anything in this place in the future anymore.... Is about survival... How am I going to survive the 20 mins walk in the winter? Hmmm.. My school, quite a lovely place... And many many buildings as you browse through the map, but me, n sis n her bf only went to the main building and the civil engineering department. And they told me I can only register on 25th... ZzzzZzzz...We went to the tourist infomation to get a map and start to walk around the city... As usual, my sis n her bf went went shopping, and I just following behind them. We missed a lot of places because we were just too tired to walk( carrying the groceries and the goods we bought).. The next day, Wed... We went to The Gala Casino.... 20 mins walk from our home... At first I won £10 using the free voucher given(registering as a member). Lost £8 to the slot machine.. Coz tats d only thing i noe in tat casino... Won £10 when I was doubting whether I should insert my last £1, won another £11, then £21 in the next 10 mins. Then I was dumb enuf to insert back £10 to try my luck... too greedy.. won £30 total.... when I went to check my sis, she was playing roller with small biji of ball rolling.. dono wat tat thing is called.. She lost 60 pounds ediii..Omg!!... Decided to giv her £10 to make her happy... Her bf oso won £40, gave her £20 oso... Total up, boys won £20 each.. tat "hak mui" lost £30... ZzzzZz. the next day, nth to do, so we decided to go back there to try our luck... I "give back" the £ i took from the casino the day before, my sis lost another £20<< =.=... Her bf lose more i think.. haha.. Decided to eat canned food for the rest of the month... Save money and Go back to Gala?

Satu day trip to Newcastle yesterday, walk walk around the city, window shopping, and taking pictures of the monuments around.. Interesting place as well. Went to Chinatown and had buffet lunch there. I had 8 rounds... Eating.. Even I myself was amazed and most importantly-IMPRRREEESSive.... I won two of them(sis n bf) in eating.. And miraculously, I met two of my previous schoolmate in the same restaurant!! and they don even recognise me... I heard both of them are newcomers of U of Sundeland.. happy coz I saw someone I knew, sad coz they don recognise me... Or din see mee..mayb...

A week has gone since I reach here. I've learnt to cook, thanks to my sis's bf(he provide many recipes). I eat at least 1 bar of chocolates. I eat more, exercise more... Hoping to be fit fit guy.. hehe.. School starts next week, I guess life will be busy and hard after next week...

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When it comes to lonely night, I am grateful tat GOD has given me someone to miss and I feel so blessed to love and be loved....Thanks for being my motivation, inspiration and part of my dreams. Next GOALs: Survive the COLD, Pass my First Year with flying color, learn something new, earn another extra 1000 and bring laopo go travelling.... Wohooo~~~ Plan, injecting efforts, and pray for success.... Jia You my dear.. I love you...

New Journey

Now I've chosen the road less taken, to travel to another country, and left everyone I love and everything I treasure in another place. Solo.. hmm.. dono... Reached UK yesterday, endured 18 hours 7 hours of flight from KL to Dubai... Most of d time I was sleeping, until the flight attendants woke me up to eat my breakfast and breakfast( had 2 meals, dono wat I should call them coz I was confused wif d time). Met a guy named Johnson during the flight, and told me that he worked in department of education in scotland before, studied in curtin sarawak malaysia oso... bla bla... And I was too tired to talk to him tat time.... din catch wat he told me mostly and only replied yes or no... lol... Dubai airport, a fascinating place, saw many branded shops and 2 luxury sports cars to be won.. Din take a picture of them, too tired. Saw many ppl sleeping along all the departure gates. Guess they were as tired as me waiting for their flights. Endured another 8 hours to newcastle, almost died in the flight. coz I was too tired, too dizzy, too cold... and BORED. then, took 40mins metro from newcastle to sunderland. Quite a lovely place. Its autumn now, the temperature is quite similar to kundasang in d midnight. The wind is icy cold, and the water is freezing if u din on d heater. DAmn.... Don feel like bathing liao... LOL...