Life is getting tougher but my dreams seems to be closer in every step I take. I have committed my plans to my Lord and He has established it step by step. Still not knowing how my future looks like, but I feel good to be able to sacrifice for the one I love.
Still learning to forgive and forget, once the things I saw, I foreseen and going on.
I may not be perfect but still I am doing the best out of everything.
Where are my boundaries and limit? I will not be turning back. Not even once.

我不知道怎样祷告，
我不知道该说什么，
我没有很多时间，
所以，
我点燃着蜡烛，
将我拥有的什么，
将我拥有的时间，
将我拥有的自己，
我都把这些留给主，
当我离开这里的时候，这烛光还能继续照耀我的祈祷。
您明白我为谁祷告，请照顾她，让她能够坚强起来和能得到您的帮助，请减轻我的忧虑，提醒我为我所关顾的人祷告，让他们得到爱和照顾，感谢主，奉主命求。阿门。

So much emotional fluctuations this few weeks. It is the time of the year again. Hopefully the old loops will break. If it wasn't You who remind me to seek for you, I would have broken down inside out. I am just a simple man seeking for simple happiness. Have I asked too much? 

Ashamed of self. Foresee, seeing and saw. Stealth mode on.

God's Timing (Daily Bread, May 7)

For every matter there is a time and judgment. —Ecclesiastes 8:6


Maybe we need to be reminded that some things take time—God’s time. For instance, when the Israelites first left Egypt, God sent them on the long route to the Promised Land (Ex. 13:17-18). During that time He prepared them, taught them, and challenged them.
In our microwave world, we want everything done instantaneously. But sometimes that’s not God’s plan. Let’s seek God’s help and learn to accept His timing.

He does not lead me year by year,
Nor even day by day;
But step by step my path unfolds;
My Lord directs my way. —Ryberg

God’s timetable may move slowly, but it does move surely.

 

No matter what you are asking for:

He say yes and gives you what you want.

He says no and gives you something better.

He says wait and gives you the best.

Before You Ask

Your Father knows the things you have need of before you ask Him. —Matthew 6:8

In our time of need—whether spiritual, emotional, or physical—we can depend on the faithful care and concern of the Father. He knows us so well that He chooses the perfect time to give us what is best and to send reassurance of His care. “Not one [sparrow] is forgotten before God. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear . . . ; you are of more value than many sparrows” (Luke 12:6-7).
We can trust the wisdom of His love.

My heart overflows—the grace He provides
Is just what I need for my care;
It’s all I could ask, whatever the task,
Whatever the burden I bear. —Anon.

God’s timing is always right.

Had my answer before I wandered into the labyrinth of thoughts. 

Slaps self. Drenched in frustration, disappointment, and all kinds of negative emotions this week. Till today I am totally awakened.
Proverbs 5
The Lord detests all the proud of heart. Be sure of this: They will not go unpunished.

Proverbs 16:3
Commit to the LORD whatever you do and He will establish your plans.

I was taught whenever I made mistakes but I failed to learn the lessons. I thought I am to do everything well and planned my own future. Until you crushed everything and tell me it is a no. I knew I have made a big mistake. You have spoken to me before things happen.
Yesterday:

 Harboring hatred in the heart
Will not lead to success;
But following truth and love and grace
Will lead to blessedness.

Hatred promotes self-destruction;
love fulfills Christ’s instruction.

 

Today: 

Sometimes the path of life seems impossibly steep and lengthy. I have no strength and no will for the journey. Then I remember God knew this path long before I was called to walk it. He has always known the difficulties I would experience, the pain that I could never explain to another. He knows and offers His presence.

His ways are higher than our ways; His thoughts higher than our thoughts (Isa. 55:9). We can humbly take the path He has marked out for us today, and do so in absolute trust in His infinite wisdom and love. He is wiser and more loving than we can ever know. He who sees has foreseen and will not lead us astray.

Be still and know that He is God
For pathways steep and rough;
Not what He brings, but what He is
Will always be enough. —Anon.

God will never lead you down a wrong path.

 

I will follow you my good Shepherd.