Ding Dong

Blink blink @.@>>> what date is today? End of August dy? But memories of past few months still remain fresh... Like everything just happened yesterday.... Wondering what I have contributed to anyone around me... Damn.... I'm just like a parasite in d family.. Haiz Haiz...
Spent average 5 hours on dota per day, 1 hour eating, 1 hour fb, 3 hours tv 1 hour on beloved, 2 hours yamcha, 1 hour driving, 8 hours sleep, another 2? I'm out of earth...
But every of these days, I'm grateful to have my beloved to share my feelings, to talk , to laugh, to complain... etc..Thanks GOD for everything... but please forgive me GOD, for not going to church every Sunday...

To Laopo:
Angrying= Punishing yourself with mistakes that others commit.
You can't control people's thought, act and what they say. So, do not judge who and how you should be because of some people's stupid act and thought. You are who you are and you should be. Brenda Yap Fang Fang whom I love so much: Kind, loving, helpful, adorable beautiful, innocent, hot hot and most importantly LOUD.
For me, I treat people who treated me badly as nice as I can... Coz : karma..
Today, if ppl throw a stone at you and you pick up the stone and throw back, isn't you as NCAA(no class at all) as them? Believe, someday, they'll be crashed by boulders, just matter of time. Karma>> you reap what you sow<<
In conclusion, BE HAPPY and you can be, you willl be and you SHOULD BE...hook small finger, chop in d thumb ?....

~End of preach~

忍

When everything goes out of your plan, that means GOD doesn't like your plan.
When your plan doesn't keep up with the changes, then change your plan.（当计划赶不上变化，那就改变计划吧~）
Ppl say, hundreds of "ren" can become gold（百忍成金），see how much I can earn today~~
Thanks for d taught ya, my dear dear~~

~忍~

钱不够用~~

Kns punya toto and magnum.. buy wat number, tat number wont come out d... so pek chek... Grrr... ZzzzZzzz...
Money money money... come come come....
I need you badly~~ Phew..... rm50 blown away... but earn leh... so much harder...
I hav a dad, who doesnt give any money when I'm home, and when I'm damn broke and he doesn't want to giv any cents... Lol... Moreover, when I wanna find a part time job, he don't allow pula.... lol... So, I'll use my remaining ringgit to gamble big one... hahaha.. quite stupid huh?
Today is just another day when I receive early morning message from my laopo to wake me up for 2 minutes to look at the message and then *peng*, back to sleep.. =P
Today is just another day when I used to sit in front of my com to rot and spoil my eyes and backbone... My back is getting more painful for sitting at wrong pose for long time everyday.. Hope there will be no long term side effect later.....
Today is just another day that I have to drive my sis around to get things done....receiving parcels from post office, buy some kueh kueh to eat, buy TOTO every wed, sat and sun.. Omg... ADDICTED..
Today, i woke up shocked to hear my mom's stomach had swollen.... Drove her to d specialist hospital but doc said she was ok... Paid rm50 for consultation fee... I realised doc are so rich becoz of innocent patients like us~~ Talked for 15 mins nia.. Haiz..

Today, i realised i have so few friends in sibu now to talk to... Limteh with ming hao alone at Bandung... coz canot find anymore friends liao... And realised my life is so miserable... We chit-chatted for 3 hours... <<<>> talked about past, now, and future.... How wonderful our life were when we were in secondary school, updated myself about what's happening around with my friends... And most of them oredi have girlfriend?? Neh, this one with this lo, that with that lo...SHOCKING　Ｎｅｗｓ：Mr J, who gt d best SPM result in our school ( description: not so tall, wear spec, u noe la, those kind of ppl who only know study de looK) has a gf... LOL... no offence... but, that's fast, future DOC.....hahahah..
Listened to many ba gua, wat happened around, who else owned a DT(dao tao in foochow means 2nd wife), Ming Hao's point of view about boys and girls relationship... Hrmm.. I just realised something... something that only time can tell in future.....
Sorry that I canot call these few nights coz phone no credit liao...canot borrow mom's phone liao coz last time I used it, it costs rm30++ for a single call to my laopo for 2 hours.. She gone crazy d... But this is d situation I have to get used to when I leave Malaysia, when I canot listen to my laopo's voice or message to her everyday, everynight... But I think my laopo won't miss my ugly voice and face so much la.. so, nvm lo....
Haiz Haiz... Miss Miss.....

~I'm So Hollow~

Chapter？？

恋爱，在感情上，当你想征服对方的时候，实际上已经在一定程度上被对方征服了。

首先是对方对你的吸引，然后才是你征服对方的欲望。

我讨厌

我讨厌~
我开始讨厌~
我讨厌我的无知~
我讨厌自己的无能~
我讨厌家人对我的不信任~
我讨厌自己不是这么的完美~
我讨厌自己无法改变事实的无助感~
我讨厌最快乐的时光总是飞快地流失~
我讨厌自己无法总是能够带给别人欢笑~

我很“显”。。。
给我多些时间。。。
我想改变。。。。
我要改变。。。。
我能改变。。。。

~希望一切安好~