2010

他与她第一次在这里相遇。。

他与她每日在一起。。

他们四人是好朋友。。

他在这里等待她。。

他与她仍在一起。。

她在这里等他。。

他们四人仍是好朋友。。

他与她已是一对。。

他与她不知道是否能在一起。。

他与她在这里分手。。

他已成为她的回忆。。

他只剩下自己一个人。。

这首歌说到友情，亲情与爱情。今日的美好是否能温存？今年，明年，后年，十年后，谁会进入你的生命？又有谁会踏出你的生命？世事难料。为确保没有遗憾，请珍惜身边所有。去年七月十一日，我曾说过同样的话呗。

美好的一年又过去了。。昔日的开心就像夕阳无限好，只是近黄昏。一转眼就不见。今天，我在雪中度过，吃着火锅庆祝。刚才还开着窗对着楼下的小孩大喊：‘Happy New Year'.真是疯子一个。。哈哈。

新的一年：希望能赚一些钱买新衣，新裤，新鞋，新手机，新电脑，新女友，oppss (><)V..考得好成绩，身边所有人健健康康，快快乐乐。希望生活能不再颓废，交一些知心的朋友，以及更依赖主。

都是你的错

好老的一首歌。以前总是指着别人的脸开玩笑地唱着说：“都是你的错”。现在一点开玩笑的意思都没有。曾几何时有着词里唱着的冲动，不过如今却没了。“大学生了没”里陶子姐说到：爱情总是在不经意的时候出现,不要因为怕受伤而不敢去接触它。这样你才会懂得你想要的是什么。她与李李仁都是在彼此感情受伤时遇到，姻缘巧合造就了他们。她的话给了我很大的启发与鼓励。欲知详情，请大家收看星光大道与大学生了没。=P

Last Christmas

献给前几天在我部落格里提到的那位千里迢迢来探望男友的女人。多么认真结果还是被男友出卖了。果然一厢情愿是没用滴。

两首歌-一个故事

醉

借酒消愁，岂不知酒后愁更愁。今天买了一支伏特加，和我姐与她男友大干一番。酒完了，人不醉，心更碎。
第一次看到那种话你说你醉我勉强的接受了。你显出了不珍惜。第二次，很显然的就是你不被珍惜。我非常确定。我不错愕，我一点也不难过。隐藏已久的态度问题依旧显现了出来。唯一变质的是我容忍的量。我从没这么委屈过。甚至我怀疑爱是否说说而已，一点行动与表现都没有，只是给他人爽罢了。《爱的更简单》里说到，你必须懂得你想要得到什么，而不是一点侵略性也没有。虽然你想要跟你得到的将不会是正比，可是连基本的尊重与珍惜都得不到，那么一切都是枉然。
看了台湾好多谈话性节目，里头说到长相的重要性。案例一，一位女明星的男友劈腿，他所做所为让人听了骂得狗血淋头，当那位女明星拿出手机显示出他的照片，一旁的女性朋友马上异口同声地说原谅他吧。长相呗。人们都是现实滴。如果没有长相，才华总得有吧。如果连才华都没有，那你必须要有内涵。如果有钱的话，其他的因素就不必考虑了。男为女而亡，女则为财而亡呗，这是千古不变的道理。我虽然没有长相，可是我相信钱财可以换到它吧。我有内涵；才华叻。。。 eeeee....我相信我烹饪的功力渐渐增加当中。假以时日，我必可烧出道道好菜。
更奇怪的是我遇到了好 白目的人。什么都没有在那里拽屁。我呸！如果你能用你那个态度与他人生存下去，那么你必须感恩，因为上帝有在眷顾你。
处此之外，你们相信真爱吗？看过那种黑配白，美与丑，高与矮，门不当户不对的吗？不看条件真心付出的才是值得敬佩的。
虽然今天这条路不走不好，那么就改一改你人生的道，希望在这条充满荆棘的道路中能遇到一位真心与你克服一切的伴呗。
今夜心情：剪不断理还乱/借酒消愁，愁更愁。

恨

花田里犯的错，说好在破晓前忘掉，可我却无法释怀。
第五十天。无须多说些什么。 自私加上愚蠢造就了这一切。妈从来没说过什么聪明的话，唯一一句点醒了我：‘如果有心，什么事都能做到’。我不需要任何借口与理由了。
我姐的朋友千里迢迢来探望男友，一个愿打，一个愿挨，多么甜蜜（而且还是自己存的钱）。蜜雪告诉过我同样的事。到现在还是很感激她在我最挣扎的时候拉了我一把。自己的事还要问别人，回头来我发现一开始缺少的是信任与一颗心。天蝎座爱恨分明，爱你事可以让你拥有他的全世界，恨你时，将恨你入骨。算了，宁缺勿滥。。显~~

Gone

Paris trip GONE~~ THanks to worst blizzard in France in the history....

Had a lousiest, most expensive and get nothing one day trip-to London.. Places visited-St Pancras and King Cross Station.

The trip started with excitement in 4 hours train from Sunderland to London. Peoples invovled: Me, sis, her bf, Audrey, Shariel(Leng lui~~wheeewhit) and Ah Bao. When we reach London, we separated. Ah Bao and Shariel headed to Tang Ren Jie for lunch. Others headed St Pancras station directly for lunch. There, I had most expensive sushi I have ever had. minimum price was 1.7 pounds ranging to most expensive 5 pounds. The dishes were tiny. The amount of rice and udon mee i ordered was countable. Costs me 11 pounds overall. 0_0...After lunch, the worst nightmare came. Ah Bao called to tell the bad news. Trains from London to Paris were cancelled due to technical problem. If that is the case, we'll be behind our schedule and our accomodation in Paris will be a problem. We took Eurostar train becoz it is the only train that goes undersea from London to Paris. Then we waited for 1 hour for more info about the train. I prayed: Dear God, please show us a way. Becoz we dono what to do next... book a hotel to stay overnight in London? Take a plane which is over expensive? Take ferry which is impossible or take the bus which is extremely dangerous. This is becoz Ah Bao just witness a bus knocked someone down when taking a left turn at 20 km/h and skid... and bang!! Pedestrians were down...

Everyone cheered when Eurostar staff announced to have an emergency timetable and the trains were operating again. Wow... God answered my prayers.... We waited for an hour after checking in. At the very last minute, the Eurostar staff members made an announcement to cancel all the trips due to severe weather conditions. Zzzz.... we waited for nothing... I wonder why they dont make that announcement earlier so that we can prepare for better alternatives... Giving false promises to make people happy, wasted people's time for nothing then saying sorry hoping to solve the problem... People are all the same.... Lousy behaviour.... We have no other choice but to take the last train home, on time. The only fun part of the journey will be chatting and playing pokers with the gals on the train for 4 hours. Shariel is such a leng lui... I heard her bf rented a whole restaurant for a night just for valentine or her birthday.... I knew why such a beautiful and nice gal is worth her bf doing that after the trip.
The news: http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20091219/wl_uk_afp/britainfrancebelgiumrailtravelweather

http://www.bloomberg.com/apps/news?pid=20601102&sid=aGBvjPXtEkp0

God did show us a way, the better and safer way back home.

Moral of the story: no travelling during winter time.

Sad: Missed the chance to travel with leng lui and DISNEY LAANNNDD =(

Will revisit Paris again in summer.. If something ridiculous like this happened again, we'll ban Paris from our visiting list.
Below are some Photos taken.
Before we depart, pictures taken in Front of Sunderland Library

The only thing we get: Cancelled train stamp on passport from London to Paris

第一次

第一次感觉怎样？紧张，开心，不知所措，累人，让人流汗，笑得合不拢嘴。。。
今天我体验了人生第一次的雪景。。。
话说今天起得有点晚，因为昨晚看了恋爱高手，韩国戏。里头的女主角孙什么的，十分，超级无敌迷人，非常kawaiiiiii,让人看了鼻血会喷到干的那种，尤其她在装可爱的时候，心都融尽了。
回到话题，刚要去买菜的时候，看到天空白雪纷飞，好漂亮。沿路走，会看到黑色的马路，红色的行人道渐渐被白雪淹没，全都变白色的！！！！一边走一边跑，因为穿着新外套，不防水的那种，担心会湿透。结果没有。雪就像小石头那样掉下来，一粒一粒打在外套上。如果下大雪岂不是会砸死人？ LOL。。。说着说着，我还真的是奇人一个，在雪天里流起汗了。。 哈哈。
回到家赶功课，有mic mic陪我聊天。问一问她最近如何，和一些正常女性的观点，让我自己跟确定我所预测跟判断的都没错。不管做什么，态度两个字非常重要。打从一开始我就在强调这两个字了。Mic Mic说了一句经典-follow your heart。我相信它。
今天，功课做完了。明天交，然后放假咯~~~~
收拾行李，后天旅行去咯。
~开心~ ^.^v

PDP

PDP是啥东东？为什么工程师得写那种东西呗？废物！！！
话说，PDP 是关于个人素质进展的报告。里头包含个人的CV，还得写个人的优缺点，对未来有什么期望，而你的优缺点怎样能够帮你达到你的期望。也算是一种个人进度报告表吧。
为什么说是废的？因为就算写了下来，没有行动，写得再好看也没有用。而且ＰＤＰ是我　　　　ａｓｓｉｇｎｍｅｎｔ的一部分。又是一份作文题，分数高不高关键取决于你的谎话写得好不好看。又得磨灭良心做事了。。哎哎～～

话说回来，部落格也可以当作是一种ＰＤＰ的形式。因为它记载了每一天的事，感想等等。我们要如何超越自己，得看个人的造化。当你有一天回头看的时候，是否有进步得看一看几年后的今天你记载了什么，而又做了什么。

这里认识新朋友，通常人家都会问一个问题。每次那问题的答案都让我很挣扎。回答有，人家就会逼问下去。没有而那些知情的人就会说你不尊重。哦哦哦哦。。。焕然大悟。。原来这是一种尊重。我的呢？
再来，随着年龄的增长，我们所背负的责任也越大。不要说我只是一个平凡人，别人的事与我无关。问一问自己，我是谁？弟弟？妹妹？哥哥？姐姐？朋友？学生？情人？工作者？
在这一连串的角色中，你们都有尽应有的责任吗？不要问我，我还在学习。不过，我已经尽力了。
虽然我才十九岁，不过因为团契，教会，以前的工作环境，还有交过无数朋友的经历，我看到了８０％的不负责任，视而不见，不闻不问，自私，贪心，不要脸，自大等等等等。。。。真真正正心地好的只有５％。还有１５％是我不能判断的。更奇怪的是，我看到了泥沼，可是不知被什么蒙蔽了眼，回过头来就陷了进去。

今天心情：十分不悦
读书进度：２／１００％
天气：雨天
期盼能学习的：不闻不问，为自己多想－简称自私和活在自己世界里头的功力。
祈祷：盗贼猖獗，好几家都被破玻璃了，幸好还没死人。希望死贼头会尽快被抓到。嘿嘿～～

好歌分享

孙燕姿的我不难过。

这一首歌，从去年听到现在，百听不厌。每一次听都有不同的感触。

SPAMMM!!!

Our attendance records show that you did not attend your English class this week.

I would like to remind you that attendance at the English class is a requirement of your visa and the course content will help you complete and do well in your main degree assessments.

Therefore, we look forward to seeing you in class at the next session.

If you are having problems attending this class because you have another class at the same time, please let us know by emailing ELT@tees.ac.uk and we will try to re-allocate you.

Kind regards

Dawn Kennedy
Education Team
School of Social Sciences and Law
01642 342334

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This Dawn Kennedy guy keeps spamming my mailbox everyweek.... I wan 2 sue U!!!

生活

没有挑战的生活不是生活。
没有目标的生活不是生活。
没有遗憾的生活不是生活。
没有爱情的生活不是生活。
不管你今天有了多美好的生活，我们总是缺了什么，而不停的为那个什么而奋斗。
我现在有目标，充满挑战和遗憾。
目标：拥有我认为最好的东西。希望我可以克服懒性，追上落后已久的课程，温习它们。这样我才能专心的去找一份工赚一些些钱来实践我一个小小的梦想。其次，那些钱可以用来补给我自己的旅行费，到处去看看，不必做“伸手将军”。再来就是带着爱我和我爱的人一起旅行，我希望我能将我的喜悦分享给那个她。
挑战：孤独。明年可能又要换大学。到时真真正正的一个人生活，我希望我还有这个勇气。
遗憾：又再次抛下刚认识的朋友。

最近又开始自我审核。我总是说我讨厌说谎的人。其实，我发现我也是这种人。明明看清了事实是如何，我一次又一次的欺骗自己去相信自己所捏造的未来。梦醒了，发现别人说的也是真相，我还是不愿意去相信。其实我已经预测到了，只是来得太早了。我试图用言语去改变，不料，这些言语先改变了我。


我已遗失了爱心，勇气，信心，信任与坚强。如有发现，请速速归还。感激不尽。

Lai Gan jit bui

=)

Who are you to criticize others while you do not know them well?
Either you step into their shoes to feel what they feel or you keep your mouth shut.
Every words you say determines your level of intelligence and maturity.
Don jual mahal with me... Coz I cannot afford it...
I would like to introduce you my best friend, Jesus. I think only he can help people to overcome the bad habits like lying, dui pao + dui pao... bla bla bla... If you have any problems with me, talk to him... He'll settle for me.. Thank you..

Observe, Predict and Conclude

Quiet ppl like to observe.
They say diam diam ubi berisi bah...I'm d quiet potato.
I like to see. wats happening around. who's out there. where are u ppl. why are you ppl doing that, how did that happen.
Among all kinds of people, I hate liars who lie to protect themselves or for their own goods. Face problem, accusing people, selfish a bit for ownself. Well, I always pray for those kinds of people. Obviously they still havent realise wat they are doing is wrong. Please grant them wisdom to realise that.
Second kind is selfish people, whom I always call them fish mongers. Probably those people have sold too much fish that you can smell the stench caused by the selfishness when they are around. You can tell by their deeds and most of the sentence they say starts with the word "I".
Third kind is irresponsible people. What responsibilites are given today and what duty you are given? What should be done is ignored always.
You can tell who are those kinds of people through obsevations. What they say and what they've done. Then, be a humble person. Throw a bait at them and predict wat they'll do. If prediction match outcome, here comes the conclusion.
Always, my head tells me to do what those people do to them but my heart tells me not. Sow what you reap. I need not to see what will happen to you people but at least I'm happy. Let me down 100 times and I'll let you down only once and for all.
Thank GOD for letting me to see these and warn me not to do what they do. Haiz, may you people receive GOD's fullest blessings.


So many things to study and assignments to complete but I'm just lazy. Can't keep my hands off my keyboard from facebook games and pp stream.
@.@>>>>19th Dec... Wakaka..

Condition Survey

We, humans, do surveying all the time. Get me?
Building is wonderful thing. To maintain the building in good condition, we survey frequently. Look from top to bottom, bottom to top. Once defects are found, we search for symptoms. Diagnose the defects, and find a cure. Finally we think of way to prevent the problems. We try, trying until the word become tried. Problems not solved? The building collapse.
Phew.. Nvm then.... take a deep breath and change to another building as your subject of study. Lol...

Last day of Nov

Time flies.
Its end of Nov again.
I love the way time flies this time. I can't taste any sweetness nor saltiness in my life now....
Played basketball two days before for the first time here. No wonder the government here says young ppl don wan to exercise. Book a court oso need 30+ pounds. knn. Convert to ringgit one ppl need pay rm18 a game.. CCB... YOUNGSTERS, don go for this kind of sports. Invest your money into GALA.. mayb you hav better profit too... LOL
I love to go travelling whenever I have holiday more than 3 weeks so that I can look forward for the holiday instead of stressful days (exams and assignments) before them. Hohoho... 19 more days to go... =D
Sloth has conquereed me. Its maths exam worth 33 marks of overall module next two days. I havent touched any notes yet... Haiz... Now I'm thinking about holiday and money. Gonna find a job after back from vacation. I need lots and lots of money to shop, to eat.. and to TRAVEL.... but lazy...
Next places I wan to go: Taiwan and HK.... Hopefully gt enuf money next year..
2 more weeks and I'll be a free man... wohooo...
Goodbye November. Hello, Last month of the year.

500 days of Summer

Go google, type PP stream, download the setup, run it and click into 500 days of Summer. I love the movie.
Its about a pure and innocent man who always believes someone to be "The One" and a woman who doesn't believe in true love. I love the reality vs expectation part. It is always happening in anyone's life and when expectation doesn't meet reality, it ends with anger, sadness, disappointment.........When you love someone, everything good appears, you can't even see anything bad about the person. When the feeling is over, everything good turns bad and nothing can be good. Tom thought Summer was meant to be... Summer liked Tom and she spoke it out first and Tom was too pure and innocent to catch that. Summer cried when she saw the scene the bride with the "groom" in the public bus but Tom didn't catch it. At last, Summer married a random man, Tom didn't get it. Summer actuallly gave him a lot of chances but Tom didn't appreciate it. Tom put too much attention on Summer and when she left, its quite harsh for him. After all the hard work, Tom got nothing from this relationship besides the short term happiness and he knew himself better. He gave up his job and repick his long forgotten dream-architect. Truth is, a lousy partner makes you abandon your world for him or her. A good one leads you to the world. Coincidence, it alwayss will be. There are no such thing such as fate, nothing is meant to be.
The end of the story, Summer left and here comes the Autumn... ironic, but this is life and REALITY.
~double thumbs up~
你曾经深爱过的某人，无非就是芸芸丛生中的一个，只是爱由心生，自以为她会是今生最爱，当你感觉你爱她，你用心去爱就觉得她最珍贵，当万物归原，生命仍然继续，她无非也就是我们生命中的一个过客。 我们根本无法确定哪一个才是今生最爱，如果不懂得去珍惜，你身边这个爱你的人，在某一天，也会成为你身边的过客。 找一个你爱的人不容易，找一个爱你的人也不容易。如果无法确定哪一个才是你最爱的人，何不在自己成为别人的爱人的时候珍惜这份感情？爱由心生，你告诉自己是爱她的，自然就可以爱上她。 如果你爱的人不爱你，也请记得：爱由心生。是你太过于把目光集中在她身上了，试着放开视线焦点，你会发现光亮的蜡烛到处都有。 爱与不爱，无非也就是在一念之间。 过去的事情过去的爱情，就让它过去吧，那只是我们生命的一部分，只是茫茫大海中的一滴水珠，只是漫漫苍弩中一粒微尘。没有那些过去，也不会造就现在的你我。 珍惜当前，永远胜于三心二意。

别人的生日

今天本是一个非常平凡的日子。早上九点钟起床，打开电脑。打开facebook-MafiaＷＡｒｓ。就这样连续按了一个钟。之后打开ｎｂａ．．看一看，每天球赛还是依然精彩。得知Ｉｖｅｒｓｏｎ将要退休，有些可惜。又一代巨星的星光只能成为回忆。今天又逃了两堂课，没什么大不了。在家里本来想做一做下星期得交的assignment，还没开始就想起今天是我姐的朋友生日。虽然刚认识，可是大家都很谈得来。是我在这里打ｃｓ的战友。大家在Ｔｈｅ　Ｇｒｅｅｎｓ吃午餐帮他庆祝。因为自己生病，所以就想吃些好的。点了ｆｉｓｈ和　ｃｈｉｐｓ，芒果汁，还有ｗａｆｆｌｅ加雪糕做甜点。回想一下真是有点奢侈。饭后，大家就散了。寿星公独自前往医院复诊。他还真像我，喜欢ｓｏｌｏ．孤独的背影中，还是有让人无法形容的悲哀。原本以为这一天就这样结束了，结果他们早已订了场打羽球。所以就跟去了。回到家，还是没有做功课跟读书的动力。再这样下去，我应该会死的好惨吧。。。　不过今天让我想起了前几个礼拜我生日时的情景。我终于明白为什么当天我有那种怪怪的ｆｅｅｌ了。就用这首歌来形容吧。

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深秋寒冬

突如其来的冷风，莫名的黑暗，只有车灯照亮的道路。。一人坐暖的巴士位子。
在黑暗里，想起的是百年不见的真心好友。
中五时，一张桌子，总是有两张椅子的影子。早晨的时间，总是属于我们俩。
你总是有不明白的化学题目，我总是有教不会的数学题。你对我总是有聊不完的话题，我总是有害羞的脸孔。
光阴似箭，一年就这样过去了。我忽略了你的存在，往自己的梦想奔腾。而你总是对我有数不完的关怀。我还记得你三番四次的邀约我出来喝茶，而我只去过一次。我记得你为了我忘记你的生日而生气。而这一切的一切，我总不以为意，我将他们视为里所当然。纸包不住火，我周围发生的一切，我相信已传到你耳里。我相信这是你不再与我联络的原因。而我却没付出任何行动来挽回我们的友谊。
人生，难免有些错误，有些遗憾。亲爱的朋友，请原谅我这自私又不懂大体的人。原谅我这么不懂事，让你有些难过。因为，今天，日子有些黑暗。让我明白，原来对一个人好，非常容易而找一个真心对你好的人非常难。不知今时今日的你好吗？请求上帝保守你的脚步，照亮你的日子。因为，今天我因想起了你这么一位朋友而微笑了。

精彩绝句

1. 我抽的不是烟，是寂寞！ 　　
2. 别在我的坟前哭，脏了我轮回的路。 　　　　
3. 我这人从不记仇,一般有仇当场我就报了。 　　　　
4. 已经将整个青春都用来检讨青春，还要把整个生命都用来怀疑生命。 　　　　
6. 你要是鲜花，以后牛都不敢拉粪了！ 　　　　
8. 自己选择45°仰视别人，就休怪他人135°俯视着看你。 　　　　
9. 你攒够四块五，我也攒够四块五，我们就可以去民政局结婚了。 　　　　
10. 我爸面对我发胖一事发表了看法：没有韩红的命，还得了韩红的病。 　　　　
11. 曾以为我是那崖畔的一枝花，后来才知道，不过是人海一粒渣。 　　　　
12. 现在你骂我，是因为你还不了解我，等你以后了解了我，你一定会动手打我的。 　　　　
13. 石头记告诉我们：凡是真心爱的最后都散了，凡是混搭的最后都团圆了。 　　　　
14. 如果你不是经常遇到挫折，这表明你做的事情没有很大的创新性-伍迪.艾伦 　　　　
15. 人永远不知道谁哪次不经意的跟你说了再见之后就真的再也不见了。 　　　　
16. 只有颈部如胎儿般被扭曲的亡骸， 在我看来竟如同被折断的百合花。 　　　　
17. 过往的人啊 不要为我的死悲伤 如果我活着 你们谁也活不了――――-罗伯斯庇尔墓志铭 　　　　19. 马不停蹄的错过，轻而易举的辜负，不知不觉的陌路。 　　　　
20. “你喜欢我天使的脸孔，还是魔鬼的身材？”“我就喜欢你这种幽默感。” 　　　　
21. 梦 遗落在草原上 月 经常挂在天上 　　　　　　
23. “恋”是个很强悍的字。它的上半部取自“变态”的“变”，下半部取自“变态”的“态”。 　　　　24. 这姑娘，穿的是真清凉，长的是真败火。 　　　　
25. 这位姑娘，首先，我们之间有代沟，其次，你又没有乳(绿坝)沟，你说，我们还怎么交流？ 　　　　 　　　　 　　　　　　　　31. “你爸妈要是把那十分钟用来散步该多好啊。。。” 　　　　
32. 等余震的心情，就像初恋的少女等情人，既怕他不来，又怕他乱来 。 　　　　
33. 当时我正在和女朋友一起查资料，突然蹦出一个窗口，很黄很暴力，我们赶快灯给关了。 　　　　34. 我能抵抗一切，除了诱惑 　　　　
35. 别人都说我长得天生励志！ 　　　　
36. 从前，有个小孩说，打死我也不睡觉。然后他被打死了。 　　　　
37. 说假话总会被人揭穿,戴假发总会被风揭穿。 　　　　
38. 人干点好事总想让神鬼知道，干点坏事总以为神鬼不知道，我们太难为神鬼了 　　　　
39. 真不好意思，让您贱笑了。 　　　　
41. 骗子太多，傻子明显不够用了 　　　　
42. 世界上最可怕的两句话，一句是，“我这么爱你，你为什么不爱我？”还有一句是，“我这都是为你好。” 　　　　
43. 我悲哀，我用我最美丽的一面展现给他看，他看的却是远方的风景。 　　　　
44. 初中的体育老师说：谁敢再穿裙子上我的课，就罚她倒立。 　　　　
45. 以前，世界这么乱，小女子怎么混呢；现在嘛，小女子这么乱，世界怎么混呢？——尹丽川如是说 　　　　
46. 男的装女的叫人妖，那女的装男的呢？——春哥呗 　　　　
47. 我有一颗水晶般的心，可他们以为它是玻璃。 　　　　
48. 每个成功的奥特曼背后都有一个默默挨打的小怪兽。 　　　　
49. 好女人就像汽油，一旦拥有就有动力：坏女人就像气囊，一旦用上就有危机。 　　　　50. 好的爱情是你透过一个男人看到世界，坏的爱情是你为了一个人舍弃世界。 　　　　
51. 人不能把钱带进坟墓，但钱却可以把人带进去 　　　　
52. 真爱就像幽灵，人人都谈论它，可却从未有人真正见过它。 　　　　
53. 这世界上最遥远的距离，不是天涯海角，也不是生死别离，而是我身在祖国，却不知道祖国在发生什么。 　　　　
54. 寂寞就是有人说话时，没人在听；有人在听时，你却没话说了! 　　　　
55. 时间是最好的老师，但遗憾的是——最后他把所有的学生都弄死了。 　　　　
56. 男人的话就像老太太的牙齿，有多少是真的？！ 　　　　
57. 《绝望的主妇》第一集就有这样的台词：“男人勃(绿坝)起的时候是没有道德可言的。” 　　　　　　　59. 你给了我两个选择，却是一个结局。 　　　　
60. 选恋人要选和自己相配的，如果不相配那也要选个自己敬佩的，如果不能敬佩那起码得选个可以交配的。 　　　　
61. 你这个给过我承诺的人，最终却也只留给我一个灿烂的表情，而非灿烂的一生。 　　　　
62. 城市里除了性无能的男人，就是爱无能的男人，除了这两者，只剩下，女人。 　　　　
63. 他说：“你会找到一个比我更好的人。” 我微笑说：“但我不会再对人这么好了。” 　　　　64. 周迅在《如果，爱》里面有一句话说得很对，过去的意义只有一个，就是让我不想再回到过去。 　　　　
65. 生存是什么?生存就是不择手段的活着。 　　　　
66. 现在不玩命,将来命玩你 　　　　
67. 一个人的死是一个悲剧 千百万人的死却仅仅是个统计数字 　　　　
68. 有的人，从他看电影的方式就能看出他人品，看文艺片时不断快进，看A(绿坝)片时不断暂停。 　　　　
69. 一分钟有多长？这要看你是蹲在厕所里面，还是等在厕所外面 　　　　
70. 我爸说过的最让我感动的一句话：“孩子，好好学习吧，爸以前玩麻将都玩儿10块的，现在为了供你念书，改玩儿1块的了。。。” 　　　　
71. 过去谈朋友是先问别人有朋友没有，现在得问别人是不是同性恋。 　　　　
72. 不是你不笑，一笑粉就掉! 　　　　
73. 俺姥姥看到电视里三分钟无痛人流的广告后气愤滴说：“这就是在告诉小年轻儿们都赶紧去胡搞吧，反正三分钟，还无痛。” 　　　　
75. 师太，你是我心中的魔，贫僧离你越近，就离佛越远…… 　　　　
76. 真正的流浪与漂泊是，你没有可以回去的地方。 　　　　
77. 生活就像一部庸俗的法国文艺片，没有高潮，没有情色，连字幕都没有。 　　　　
78. 生的伟大，死在花下！ 　　　　
79. 我的墓志铭：陪聊，提供夜间上门服务。 　　　　
80. 带着一根烟，浪迹天涯。。。。。。 　　　　
81. 我们最大的情敌，不是第三者，而是岁月 　　　
82. 我最想做你的一颗牙齿. 因为这样.至少 你没有我的时候.你会疼. 　　　　8
3. 看到成都把公交遇难人员定为凶手，上海方面非常羡慕，他们多么想说，那幢楼是被那个遇难工人推倒的。 　　　　
84. 对你微笑，纯属礼貌 　　　　
85. 地铁上的广告：挤吗？买辆车吧！出租车上的广告：堵吗？坐地铁吧！ 　　　　
86. 我允许你走进我的世界，但绝不允许你在我的世界里走来走去。 　　　　
87. 生命是一朵千瓣莲花，既然我拒绝绽放，那么我也就同时拒绝了枯萎和零落 　　　　
88. A: 我大姨妈刚走。 B：哦，最近车票不大好买吧？ 　　　　
89. 4年没见到老婆了，她去年给我生了个大胖小子……真想回家看看啊。 　　　　
90. 一北京人叹道：北京的地铁真挤，上周一孕妇被挤流产了。上海人不削的说：上海的地铁才叫挤，去年一少女被挤怀孕了。 　　　　
91. 满以为我会死于肝癌，肺癌，胃癌或是口腔癌，不想医师告诉我已到了手癌晚期。 　　　　92. 一女的问我 ， 她长得怎么样。我说她很纯洁，就算活到一百岁也会是个处女。 　　　　
93. “回床率”，这不得不说是个好词儿。 　　　　
94. 像阴道般咧嘴笑起来。 —某翻译小说中的一句。 　　　　
95. 答辩难度要视答辩老师头天晚上的性生活质量而定。 　　　　　　
97. 就算是一坨屎，也有遇见屎壳郎的那天。所以你大可不必为今天的自己有太多担忧。 　　　　98. 要搞清楚自己人生的剧本――不是你父母的续集，不是你子女的前传，更不是你朋友的外篇。 　　　　99.如果你笑了，请顺手顶下~

真情酒吧-Men's Talk

前提就说我最近过得怎样吧。
最近，有一位从sibu来的女同学，比我大三岁，跟我念同一年。老实说，我不是傻子，她为什么老是说翘课了还说谎？前几天的露营，没去就算了还跟我说跟另外一个朋友做assignment.我们不是念同一班的呗？我还有什么功课我自己不了解吗？我讨厌人家说谎，从你的眼神，口气我90%就能判断出。特别是借口跟理由特别多的人。你有了前科，我不会相信你了。不管你是谁，朋友，情人或是亲人。生病第二天，发烧了。在这里要好的朋友却不断的关心与陪伴。感谢那些不断付出真心虽然只是在维持友谊人。好心有好报，上帝必恩赐你们。说了这么久，离题了，真情酒吧，就只说男人与女人之间的关系。

就拿我的例子来说吧。从前我以为只要不断对一个人好，那人一定会喜欢你。对一个人非常好，细心，体贴，对方不一定以相同的方式回报。爱情不是付出多少，回报就多少。可是，无论男女，都可能忘记了，爱情里要考100分，不是当当一方面的付出，而是两个人各自拿出50分来填满那100分。拿相同的逻辑运用在日常生活中，考试要拿100分，所付出的努力是不是非常的痛苦，累，让你流泪甚至绝望？就拿以前的例子，我认真，努力付出了100分，结果喜欢的人毕竟还是离我而去不是吗？记得在美里那段颓废的日子，也有一个认真的男人，陪我颓废。Vincent哥。哈哈。他老是教我该怎么做，这样对不对，那样对不对。他当时已经尝到爱情美丽的果实，在美里交了一个女友，时常两头跑。女友也挺有钱，漂亮的脸蛋，妙曼的身材，毕竟是每个男人梦寐以求的女人。直到我再次回到美里时才知道说他们分了（女的有了新的男友）。当初爱得那么认真，女孩说变就变。后来什么也没得到。。
如果你有看17-11-09的大学生了没-爱情的梦幻你看清了吗？
有外表的男人女人，绝对不会是乖仔。男女的心理是乱枪打鸟，能吃几只是几只。大家都享受暧昧，那种猎艳的feel。钓鱼很有feel，唯一不同的是有些人钓到了鱼，还会看一看是不是条大鱼，之后还会看一看好不好吃。有些人纯粹钓到了，玩玩就放掉了。成熟的男性看的是外表后内心，女人则是金钱后内心。外表对她们说并不是那么重要。说到这点，我就是不成熟的男人吗？靠，被射了一箭。
说回爱情，这道理就像煮东西一样。如果你想要尝到美味，你就会多花点心思。大火，菜好快就焦了。不好。小火，菜就会冷掉，你永远就尝不到。最适合的是中火，放点心思与注意力，细心煎熬，毕竟能煮出一锅好菜。
爱情就好像1+1赌博，1+1=2。这是不变的道理。游戏规则是不让结果等于二，男女手中各自有筹码。只看大家愿意退出多少筹码来赢得这场赌博。有些人不顾一切把所有筹码推出，结果一场空。有些人害怕一场空而不敢推出筹码。结果还是输了。
男人交女朋友是来解忧解闷，希望找个人陪伴。不开心时希望女友说句好话开心开心，开心时希望能与另一伴分享。
女性呢，多数是虚荣心吧。她的男人必须有钱，能买下她所喜欢的东西。
必须好看，这样跟他出街时能得到其他女性朋友羡慕的眼光。
必须贴心，在她需要时随时出现，帮她解困解忧。
必须满足她一切一切的要求。
拿句男人女人里的歌词-女人女人，多希望你是好人。不需要好到哪里去，至少满足我们小小的愿望好吗？还有毕竟男人都是感官的动物。如果你有漂亮的脸蛋，你有妙曼的身材，你就安全了。以上什么都没有，那你内心必须具备温柔，贴心与细心。没有外表可是有内心的女人，男人也许不会放手的。。。
如果您再什么都没有，那您只能自求多福了。。。

2012

灾难电影，听人家说很不错，所以就自己一个人看了看。
也许是电影看多了吧。生生死死已经感动不了我，人们的情情爱爱，我知道不会发生在我身上，所以没同感身受的感觉。

2012加重了这几个元素。
友情，爱情，亲情，甚至是陌生人与陌生人之间的联系。
人性，其实可以很简单
每个人都有自己想守护的人。
即使用自己的生命去交换，那又何妨呢。
人之将死，其言也‘真’。
在去另一个国度之前，自己的真心，应该让他们知道了；之前的误解，应该要解开了。
然而，遗憾，还是有的。
有好多话，哽咽在喉咙，就要脱口而出之际，
却听到电话另一 头传来尖叫声，然后只剩一阵沉默。
再也听不到那久违却又熟悉，想念的声音。（From LeeSiang's blog)

好多时候 ，在对的时间就得说对的话，一句关怀，一句好听的话可以让一个人开心一整天。不要等没机会时才后悔当初为什么没做到。

一个人的天空很蓝，蓝的有点忧郁...
一个人的时候很自由，自由的有点孤单...
一个人的时候很轻松，轻松的有点无聊...
想念朋友的时候很幸福，幸福的有点难过...
我喜欢生命里只有单纯的盼望，只有一种安定和缓慢的成长...
喜欢岁月漂洗过的颜色，更喜欢和这个看文文的人做一辈子的朋友...
一辈子有多长，我不知道...缘分有多少，没人可以明了...这条路有多远并不重要，就算陪你走不到天涯海角，我却珍惜和你们做朋友的每一秒.

露营回来后生病了。好难受，可是又不想睡觉。哎哎。。
好多功课没做完。。只盼上帝保佑了 =P

Chilly

Three days ago...a friend of my friend passed away in a car accident. Accident, accident, accident, they happen anytime anywhere and anyone could've involved in it. I could recognise the guy who passed away from the photos they posted in facebook. We played basketball together before. I could remember that the last night before I left Miri, I was standing outside Han Lung's house and chit-chatting wif them around 1am. Then, the guy was driving past fast and suddenly hit the brake. The he reverse back fast too and Nash was beside him. Both of them reversed back just to say goodbye. Oh, I was impressed, touched. And he is gone now and forever.God Bless. Nice people always leave us earlier to go to a better place, don't they? I gotta feeling..

Went to a field course at Raven Gill Scout Camp in Commondale two days ago. It was wet, muddy and COLD. We spent most of our times outdoors doing some practical activities. Luckily I brought my Wellington boots. There were sheeps around, and poos absolutely. Just a few steps to the left and I'm in puddle, few steps to the right, in the muddy field. Walk slow or you'll fall with muds all over your body. The wind was strong. Everyone was wrapped in thick coats and boots like a dumpling, except me. Icy wind chill till I felt the pain in my bones.
There was no phone signals around the camp area. And most of the people wanted to make calls. And to get signals, we had to drive 15 minutes up to a hill or walk 30 mins. I don't know the reasons why those people were so eager to make a call outside until I was invited by one of them to take a ride on their car. They drove all the way up. All jumped off the car in excited state when they gt signal. Mr A:" Fuck, she offed her phone." Mr B:"Its ok, just text her." Mr C talking and from the smiley face, know wat's happening la. British people willing to drive 15 mins up a hill for a call. The pakistan, indian and arabic people walked. Well, Love is great isn't it. People knowing it willing to do anything for it.
The sky actually gets dark around 4pm. After dinner, every people squeezed themselve into a small pub few miles away for a drink to warm themselves. Those people were willing to spend 30 pounds per night just to drink. Mayb its their cultural but I'm just impressed to see them keep drinking and chatting for the whole night. Others played pool and darts. I was sitting there having couple of beers watching wat they were doing. After too much driking, one actually took his pants off and showed everyone his butt when we were on the way back. Another Italian girl fall into a trench with torch light in her hand( Coz it was pitch dark and we were safe walking in d dark).The India ppl and arabic ppl laughed hard.LMAO. Interesting. The British ppl were too Geng to set Tents outside with temp about 0 to 2 at nite and wind blowing at average 40km/h . Pei Fu.. But nothing ventured nothing gain right? those people sleeping outside saw Meteor Shower around 12am. Look up into the sky and you'll see stars. Lots of them plus the surrounding of the campsite was pitch dark. Off the torch and you'll find the sky is incredibly awesome. Sibu one is cloudy all the time and you could hardly see stars., Miri, you'll be sucked dry by insects if u stay in dark for more than 2 minutes. Though it was freezing, I stood outside alone watching the stars for about 10 mins. Likey it very much（如果在对的频道你会知道我想干嘛）.. Will do tat more often during spring time.
Well, stay conscious, stay warm, stay alive, stay happy.
I'm alone in UK...

19th

Two days before was my 19th.. Well, not a big deal... Just another normal day for me... Coz never celebrated for it... Kip Loong was the first who said Happy Birthday to me.. Kinda surprised coz facebook wasn't showing my birthday pun, yet he remembered about it... Gan Dong =')
Then roger who had just finished his exam, was on msn... It was 4am and he wasn't sleeping at all... Those ppl said greeted me early, coz it was still 11th night here.. Sincerely thanks anyway. Grace, as expected, remembered my bday well.. We were close when we were in form 5.. I could still remember tat countdown to SPM on the corner of the blackboard was changed to Countdown to YouUng's birthday.. Coz my bday was exactly the first day of SPM tat year.. Thank to her... LOlz... So tat everyone will not be tat stressed to see the word SPM..
Unexpected cases though, Mandy, a friend whom I had never talked face to face before but only on msn, sent me an off9 message. Well, honestly she's amazing. I still remember tat she added me to her contact lists when I left Curtin during my 1st Sem last year. She greeted me and I don't even noe who she was until she showed me her pic. We were in the same chemistry group and we didn't even had any conversation b4.. lol... Though we met few times in campus after I went back to curtin, we only smiled to each other... Haizz... Thanks anyway for keeping in touch with me(the fren whom u have nth to say when u see face to face but lots to say on msn). haha.
Unexpected case2 was my dear dada, who wasn't even sure about it, and dono paiseh for wat, makes me laugh over and over again over the message.. Seriously the message make my day.. hahahhaha...Though at first I was expecting her to find out about it after a week or never..The attitude not to expect anything better is good. I'm happy tat day. Mayb the clue I gave helped...erm... I'll assume tat U found out by yourself then...(deceiving myself). Thank You very MuchYY x infinity =D.
Tat day, my sis and her bf made a chocolate cake for me and bought some icing to decorate it. Just then the icing was all over the place when they sprayed it on my head and face and I took revenge.. haha... Consequences... the carpeted floor stinks...till now... Then it was my sis who asked: " Last year, tiz day, wat u did?" Well, I did nth, and Dada paid for my dinner tat night. First time in my life a girl paid for my dinner. Hmm... "Wat U did after tat?" her bf added. Then we started to talk cock.. lolz... We had our dinner at Gala Casino.. I had the most expensive chicken I had ever ate b4, half ekor nia, costs rm48 if converted to ringgit, they had Peking Crispy Duck and Chicken Platter, which costs 10 pounds each. Actually Gala paid for the dinner because my sis de won 60 pounds when playing Three Card Poker by getting 3 10. Memang once in a full moon one... Haha. I played slot machine but no luck.. =(
My parents totally forgotten about my bday. Well, my sis reminded them while trying she was calling mom to talk about the air ticket stuff. Dad sent me a Happy Birthday message in chinese. And I just replied Thank You. Pathethic convo~~
19 years old, I feel young because tiz year is coming to an end, and I'm ngam ngam 19..
b-(^_^)-d
To me, it is just another normal day in my life, no big surprises, nth sad happen.
Just tat I received more emails and smses from friends.
Thank You all. GOD BLess all of you with sincere hearts.

最近

好多事都在变。。如果计划赶不上变化，那就改变计划吧。。
最近得知江承翰弟兄也开始写部落格了。。而且写得好有他幽默的味道。。从来不自拍的他，自信地拿起了相机拍了拍。。而且还不错看一下。哈哈，他变得成熟了许多。身为好友的我实在感到有些欣慰。打开facebook看了看，大家都变了。。变漂亮的，变帅的，成熟的。。懂事的。。而我自己呢，我感觉我坚强了许多。。
最近，得从万圣节说起。。那天与女友吵了架。。十分不爽。刚好受到好友A的邀约去派对，马上就答应了。派对是在一间夜店里，当晚有许多美女，喝了点酒就到舞池里去跳舞，虽然是和一群不认识的人，可是还是有feel的。感谢她当晚的邀约。。过了一星期吧，突然我的室友问起了那晚的事。
他说：文，你好厉害。我住这里这么久了都没认识到对面家的女孩。而你是怎么认识的啊？
虽然只是笑了笑回答他说：就这样认识的咯，可是心里却毛了起来。。他怎么知道的啊？ 又骂：操你妈个B，你脑残吗？女朋友就住同一间房，会认识才怪。而我是“自由人”，你管我？哈哈，只是妒忌他有个好女友罢了。。
前几天，我乘搭的巴士在上学途中撞上了一辆小车。当时我就眼睁睁地看着车祸发生，巴士顿时震了一下。没人受伤，可是那辆车重伤了。不过是小车祸，可是发生在沙巴的事又在我脑中浮现，让我有些感慨。人生无常，下一秒你可能就走了吧。心里又多了一个阴影。哎~~
在十一月四号那天是我姐男友的生日。我姐为他煮了一餐，买了一粒好好吃的巧克力蛋糕。有些甜蜜吧。。晚上我们又到赌场去赌钱。也许生日真的有些运气吧，他们俩赢了两百多磅。哈哈，当晚有人请我看电影（Saw VI）。一部从头杀到尾的影片，血腥，可是我却看腻了。。哎哎~~之后又看了一部The Fourth Kind，是关于在阿拉丝加一个小镇里发生的真实影片。故事说到外星人绑架人，附身等等。电影里有真实访问与影片，让人看了毛毛的。。是一部不错看的电影。可是，不懂我最近是怎么越来越勇敢了，看了一大串的鬼片都不害怕，而且有时还想一个人走到附近的坟墓探险。。哈哈，我承认我脑是有点问题了。。下星期还有一部影片叫Paranormal Activity.故事是关于一对情侣认为自己家闹鬼，于是便决定录下晚上发生的一切。影片太真实了，而且标题写着如果看了这部电影，绝对不敢关灯睡。我就是不信，看一看他有多可怕。
前几天，安东尼问了一个很好的问题。他说男女朋友是拿来干嘛的。在谈恋爱的我却不懂得如何回答他的问题。看到有些人说拿来haolian的《什么咚咚？又有人说男朋友是给女朋友百般欺负的~女朋友是给男朋友百般照顾的。这句话我100%赞成。又有人说-分担东西。男生有的地方不足女生帮忙给个劝告当你在失望的路程时，往往女友的一句话你会觉得很暖心。应该也对吧，感情里没有对与错，好多情形是我们无法评论的。
最近，没清新的感觉了，又回到了一个人生活的日子。一个人上学，一个人吃面包，一个人打电脑游戏，一个人欣赏风景。自己拥有的快乐却不能和别人分享，实在有些悲哀。好多酸甜苦辣想对一个人说，可是她给的回应恰有意思说你自己找乐子吧，别来打扰我的生活。哎，算了吧，我只是想分享，只好把快乐藏在心里，留给有缘人吧。一个人也没啥不好，冷了把双手插进裤袋也可以很温暖。自己走想走的路，想吃什么就吃什么。就像戴佩妮在“一个人的行李”唱的吧：我要一个人到东京铁塔去看夜景，我要到威尼斯去看电影，我要一个人到阳明山去看海域，拍偶像剧。我要一个人到纽约纯粹看雪景，我要一个人到巴黎去喝咖啡写信。这些都是我想要做的，而在十二月，我将到巴黎去。本想带着心爱的人一起的吧，可是她好像没什么事想跟我一起去做。两人在一起，想和你一起去完成的梦想有好多，而你却好像什么事都不想也不肯去做。最失望的是，你的快乐与悲哀都不再与我分享。这样我算什么？及隆昨天和我谈了谈，说到要从吉隆坡游玩到新加坡，或者到Bali去，两者的价钱差不多。虽然已知道结果，可是我还是得问一问，如果只是和我单独去旅游，你愿意吗？哈哈。。我还真傻。傻得可怜。到现在还有三个女孩与两个男孩时常会来找我聊心事。 一个说我幽默，一个说我信的过，一个说我健谈，而我却常被你说得一无是处。我到底是这么没用吗？也许有些困惑与伤心，不过不要紧吧，你得记住我是你的谁。如果你开口说需要我，我就会用心聆听。不要在我认真的时候乱骂我。我讨厌不被信任，我讨厌被误会，我讨厌被诬蔑。没想过我做的每一件事背后都有它的意义。我讨厌人嘲笑我的梦想，我讨厌不被了解。可是我的善良只给你滥用。伟对我说，人不为己天诛地灭。我说我不是这样的人，我常把别人放在第一位，带来的回应是你鸡趴，你傻瓜。最近，有些醒悟了。。从朋友的欺骗，到出卖，对我说谎。我只能感叹。月儿就是最好的例子。她教会了我好多东西，也让我看到了许多。感谢她让我成长。人说，第一次就勇敢的流泪，第二次，流下泪就得学教训。第三次再流泪，那你就是个大傻瓜。还有，最近颖曦告诉了我一个天大的消息，我开心得嘴巴都笑得合不拢。虽然只是如果，毕竟还是有希望的对吗？酸甜苦辣藏在一颗真诚的心。这颗最真诚的心只献给最真诚的人。我这儿是FM12.11。有心与我交心的人，您调对频道了吗？

Memorial

Grandson: Who are these ppl here?
Grandpa: These are the men and women who sacrificed their lives for our country during the 2nd world war
Grandson: Why are they doing tat?
Grandpa: For freedom U and I having right now. For their families and the loved ones.
Grandson: So, what does this having any relationship with the bible?
Grandpa: There's a man who came down from the blissful heaven and sacrificed himself for our sins. He showed great love for us. Tats similar to wat the people here has done for us.

There's no greater love than a man laying down his life for his friends, family and loved ones.
We love because he first loved us 1 John 4:19

Summarised wat I've heard from church yesterday. Mayb some I've missed some parts, but not the most important sentence. That man from above is my IDOL.

Ugly Painting 1

Hehe.. Nth better to do....

Miss U dear~~

Stop Thinking. Just Do it

You've got to live life, not think about it.

Step into the midst of things, try and fail and learn and stand up again.

The question is not whether you will or will not make mistakes - you will always do.

The question is do you want to learn and grow, or do you want to shrink back and be stuck?

Take that step you've been avoiding. You can succeed, or you can get feedback that it didn't

work, but in either case you are sure to feel alive.

Trust no fart coz shit will follow up.

Saying it is much more easier than doing it huh?

Sorry Sorry Babe~~

A boy and a girl each holding a knife in their hand quarreling. Out of anger, the girl stabbed the boy with the knive. "Sorry!!" the girl screamed when she realised what she had done. But the wound neither heal nor stop bleeding.

Option 1: The boy stabbing the girl back for revenge, then say sorry... leaving a wound and scar tat cannot be cured.
Option 2:Endure the pain....forgive the girl and walk away, instead of two people getting hurt.

The choice is always in your hand. What's yours?

Sorry cannot mend anything. Think before you act.



Dum Dum Da La Dum La Dum Dum~~

Songs

Living starts with dreaming. So dream, dream friend, and let dreams show you the path to your bliss.(from facebook) Well, I do day dream a lot, and the dreams did showed me the path to my bliss, but they didn't show me the negative sides of the dreams. Often, we don't get what we want, and what we want we cannot get. These all can be summarised into a word- LIFE.

Everything is moving on in a blink of eye. There's no time for people to hestitate nor looking back. For greedy people who wants everything like me, often shows no appreciation when I own something good, ask for more than what I need, even more complains when you are blessfully blessed.

So far, lessons from life that I've learnt are do appreciate everything, everyone around, no matter who and where you are. Do not regret at the time you start losing them. No use. Grab every golden opportunities as chances may not be offered to you often. Nothing lasts forever, except GOD's love.

Songs, music revolve around 90% of people on the earth. In every songs there's a story to be told. For emotional(感性） people like me, often I like the song is because of the story told in the song first(lyrics) then melody... either the story is similar to what I've experienced or it expresses the same words that I'm thinking in my brain. Well, this is type of person usually get fantasized easily into the story that doesn't belongs to them or happening in the harsh reality. They have soft hearts and recognised as weaker person-emotion takes over their thinking. Easily influenced, but romantic cause will try to recreate the romance experienced in the fantasy.
Rational(理性）people often enjoy melody more than lyrics. Songs are for them to relax and enjoy. They can differenciate reality and fantasy well. This type of person are stronger,knowing whats the best for them, they can think rationally instead of letting emotions controlling them.（稳如泰山）very steady type, but dull(呆板) cause sticking too much to the reality, wouldn't risk themselve into the fantasy world that opposes the reality.
I'm emo kid(90& one) who currently is trying to live backwards to the rational me a year ago. I am who I am and always will be.
~Just a piece of thought in my mind~

洋葱

盘底 的洋葱永远只是调味品，当不成主菜。

如果你愿意一层一层的拨开它，你会鼻酸，你会流泪，你会发现它里头的秘密。

不经过煎熬，它不会美味。。讶异的是，美味的洋葱竟然没有心。。

美女好友林彩霞的洋葱说：

人就像是颗洋葱一样，总是把自己收藏得很好。。。如果你想看到洋葱的心就必须要一层一层地把它剥掉。。。在这过程中总是会让你鼻酸，让你流泪。。。只是剥到了最后才发现，原来洋葱是没有心的。。。。

I have $$

I have money$$$$$
But can I buy health?
Can I buy time?
Can I buy LOVE?
Can I buy happiness?
Can I buy knowledge?
Can I buy friends?
NO!!
And yet we can't do anything without money...
Ironic~~~
Well, I admit I'm a dumb ass.....
Saying everything is hard without trying.........
I haven't read anything and tried the quiz.....
5 out of 32...... Wow, the subject is hard, isn't it? haha... Most impressive result I've ever get.. Luckily marks are not counted towards final.....
Well, talking about dumb ass, I found myself lucky to meet someone without brain...
My selfish, brainless, boastful...housemate... Seriously I can't find anything good about him except that he keeps smiling when he talks(tired kah squeezing tat smiley face out?).
Him: Eh, Ah Wen arrr, my friend just won a 100 pounds portable DVD player from gala ooo..
Him: Eh, my classmate in Malaysia just won the chinese singing competion oo(international one)
(above two: apa kaitan dengan saya? and U?)
Him:Eh, Ah Wen arr... I just bought a new wifi for my gf ooo.. worth 50 pounds nia( I no money kah?)
Him: Eh, Ah Wen arr, where U are you going for your holiday tiz dec?( b4 i sempat reply) No lo, I'll go Edinburgh with my gf... I heard there view beautiful lo... 3 hours by bus.. bla bla(I din ask pun)....
Recently, the internet connection always disconnects and resume automatically. He was found guilty for the CRIME. When people ask.. Him: No leh, cant even go on to google... Connection nt good gua... mayb modem gt problem.. I restart lo( his room nearest to the modem=.=) ...I heard Kwong(another housemate) said line slow leh(when we ask Kwong, he said he never said tat)....My connection is good even though my room is furthest from the modem.. Obviously the dumber ass wasn't satisfied with the speed and simply restart the modem without asking others.. kuat jual ikan punya org..... There are really such a person who like to tell lies to protect himself and boast over small things and feel proud... He is who he is, we knew it since beginning... Just that whenever he tell lies, they became jokes for us.... Really lucky me to know such a person and he become part of our freetime entertainment... Poor guy living in his own lies... Wat to do? Pelbagai org pelbagai ragam. Just kesian his leng lui gf... Sibu ppl juga... Love is blind isn't it? GOD Bless U ppl...
~End of Story~=P
Dear Dear:
I'll try my best to achieve wat i should achieve here... And I'll and shall be tough and strong...
Accept, Support and Challenge(From Facebook application-Messages from GOD).. haha
~missing so as loving u much~

Time

Averaging
2 hours per day on train x 5=10 hours per week
2 hours per day in Gala x 3 = 6 hours in Gala per week
3 hours per day for drama x 7= 21 hours per week
2 hours per day for facebook x 7= 14 hours per week
2 hours per day staring at Msn x 7= 14 hours per week
8 hours per day sleeping x 7 =56 hours per week
1 hour per day cooking x 7= 7 hours per week
Time for books= 0
168 hours per week minus total time used above = 40 hours
Where am I and what am I doing in that 40 hours?
Probably out of earth thinking nonsence....
I wish I could do something....
Instead of wasting time everyday...
I wish I have a piece of heart and mind on the damn lecture notes...
I wish I could get busy and make full use of my free time..........
And just realised I should do so....... but dono where to start....
Everything just easier said than be done...........
SFGTD Box:
To my Father in Heaven:
Please light up the dark path in front of me......
Please grant me strength when I am weak to walk on...
Please grant me courage when I am afraid to see what lies ahead the dark path and accept the facts that I couldn't change...
Pleasse grant me wisdom to make the right choices..
Please grant me patience and faith to believe in everything YOU have for me....
Sincerely THANK YOU....

有意思的短片

Thank You Dear

It was again a depressing morning when I woke up. Nth else to do, so I turned on the laptop and watched some drama. Was supposed to go to school, but "Bo feel". Skipped Engineering Maths seminar, Lecture and (English class<< dono for wat the insist me to take tiz class). Went to Gala in the afternoon. At first, me n my sis just thinking of collecting a stamp on a card from Gala Casino(after collecting 4 stamps, we will get a guaranteed win scratch card which will win us lots of great prizes). Then her bf followed, then it ended up with them gambling again.. They won 55 pounds from the slot machine.. LOL. But tat wasn't enuf to cover their previous night de loss: 180 pounds(they went out when I was about to sleep). Decided to walk around after tat. They brought me to Sunderland Muzeum, 3 floors, many interesting things inside. When we all wanted to go pee pee, the only toilet we could find was for disabled person one. When they were looking for the way to switch on the light, my sis bf accidentally pulled the red string, which was designed for the disabled person to seek for help when they had problems inside the toilet. The alarm RANG!! Just imagine a quiet surrounding with the ALARMMM!!. Luckily no one was around. A guard came and turned it off. LOL... Paisehhh.... Quickly, we escaped from the museum and went to the park nearby. It was such a lovely park with ducks swimming in the water, pigeons flying around, couples sitting on the chairs, and dogs running around. Went to the playground and met a lovely little girl. When we were cycling on the merry-go-round( have to cycle for the whole thing to rotate), she just came silently. We stopped and the little girl climbed onto the sit and joined our ride.... Wheeeee~~~ After 2 or 3 mins, her mother came, probably scared by bunch of crazy person like us, asking the little girl to go home. The little girl was reluctant to leave tat her mother gave to carry her in arms by force(the little girl grabbed the steering wheel tightly). Such a lovely girl who keeps me laughing coz her face was full of dried saliva and "pi sai"... hahahah......
Went to buy some vege and grapes. When eating those grapes, I realised something. Last time I bought some green grapes from the same shop, they were damn sweet. This time, I bought some red grapes from the same shop, I expected them to be as sweet as last time. But they just don't. Some sour, some bitter although they all look good. What I could do was to taste them one by one, to get the sweet ones.
Last time when I was studying in Miri, there were more sweet memories than the bitter ones. I had such awesome time with my friends and loved one. Now in a different place and enviroment, although it looks good, but everything I face now is bitter and sour one. I was down and disappointed coz I expect what I get will be as sweet as last time. But thousands of money has been invested. There are no any 2nd chance to turn back like last time. I have to take every responsibility and suffer the consequences of the wrong decision I've made. Taste the bitter and sour ones to find the sweet ones........
My dear Dada, I sincerely thank you for listening and sharing my loads. Just chatting and listening to your voice heals every sadness here. What can I do besides saying thank you x infinity and I love U x infinity..... I hope I can share yours tooo....

Here`s a verse you can always hold on to:"If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you." --John 15:7
Though it`s conditional, it`s still a wonderful giftyou can claim as God`s promise.God is faithful to hear your petitions. Pray is the key, faith unlocks every locked doors. ( From Facebook) =D

~Thank You Dear GOD and Dada)

F***ingly F***ed

Holy shit I am depressed like no other shit in this place. Totally f***ed up as I'm not interested in any of the lecture, I do not know why I'm studying it. F*** f*** zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZzZZzzZzZzzZZzz...
I felt so cheated here.......... things doesnt seem as good as told. I have d "chong dong" to hop onto a plane and go home. Now I miss miri.... Tiz is shittyly shit. Now I miss my friends.... Even miss my laopo more.. =(
I sincerely pray that a truck would knock me down, then somebody else will bring me home, dead or alive.


I wish one day you will miss me terribly that no matter how hard you look for me, you won't find me. Why? Because, I want you to miss me the way I'm missing you today.

EEEEmmmoooo

How the hell can I plunge myself into tiz piece of shit?
Am I in the right course?
Am I in the right place?
Am I being ignorant all the time?
Have I made the right decision?
Can studying abroad really bring a better and happier future?
What if I didn't listen to my parents at the first time?
What if I'm nt being so greedy at the first time?
What if I wasn't expecting too much?
What if I can foresee things?
But, what if never happens.
If it did happen, there are no words such as accidents, tragedies, and regret.
Tiz is life.
Life is just full of shit and ppl just keep on stepping on those shits.
Who can clean away those shits from me?

Expect no one and nothing better than what you have today, the higher the expectation, the greater the disappointment if things doesnt turn out right. Who knows what will happen 2molo?
Mayb worse, mayb better.

HOping the "emo~ness" is just bcoz of the new environment and the situation I'm trying to adapt to.

~Down and emo =( ~

苦

人生苦短，却有许多事能烦。
人们认为快乐的时光总是短暂，是否我们都身在福中不知福？
这个世界就这么不完美。你想得到些什么就不得不失去些什么。
然而，你得到的是否比你失去的值得，
这是每个人都必须学习去衡量的课程。
开心如何？
不开心又如何？
日子照过。

~只盼一切顺心~

《宁愿，爱短短的就好！》

和心爱的人赌气，输赢都没有意义。应该积极用沟通化解歧见，才不会后悔莫及。

Dreams

No internet connection is so troublesome!! Aiks Aiks Aiks...ZzzzZzzz.....

Went to Middlesbrough last tuesday. It took 1 hour train from sunderland to middlesbrough and another 20 mins walk to my school. When I reached the gate of my school, I suddenly realised that it isn't about achieving anything in this place in the future anymore.... Is about survival... How am I going to survive the 20 mins walk in the winter? Hmmm.. My school, quite a lovely place... And many many buildings as you browse through the map, but me, n sis n her bf only went to the main building and the civil engineering department. And they told me I can only register on 25th... ZzzzZzzz...We went to the tourist infomation to get a map and start to walk around the city... As usual, my sis n her bf went went shopping, and I just following behind them. We missed a lot of places because we were just too tired to walk( carrying the groceries and the goods we bought).. The next day, Wed... We went to The Gala Casino.... 20 mins walk from our home... At first I won £10 using the free voucher given(registering as a member). Lost £8 to the slot machine.. Coz tats d only thing i noe in tat casino... Won £10 when I was doubting whether I should insert my last £1, won another £11, then £21 in the next 10 mins. Then I was dumb enuf to insert back £10 to try my luck... too greedy.. won £30 total.... when I went to check my sis, she was playing roller with small biji of ball rolling.. dono wat tat thing is called.. She lost 60 pounds ediii..Omg!!... Decided to giv her £10 to make her happy... Her bf oso won £40, gave her £20 oso... Total up, boys won £20 each.. tat "hak mui" lost £30... ZzzzZz. the next day, nth to do, so we decided to go back there to try our luck... I "give back" the £ i took from the casino the day before, my sis lost another £20<< =.=... Her bf lose more i think.. haha.. Decided to eat canned food for the rest of the month... Save money and Go back to Gala?

Satu day trip to Newcastle yesterday, walk walk around the city, window shopping, and taking pictures of the monuments around.. Interesting place as well. Went to Chinatown and had buffet lunch there. I had 8 rounds... Eating.. Even I myself was amazed and most importantly-IMPRRREEESSive.... I won two of them(sis n bf) in eating.. And miraculously, I met two of my previous schoolmate in the same restaurant!! and they don even recognise me... I heard both of them are newcomers of U of Sundeland.. happy coz I saw someone I knew, sad coz they don recognise me... Or din see mee..mayb...

A week has gone since I reach here. I've learnt to cook, thanks to my sis's bf(he provide many recipes). I eat at least 1 bar of chocolates. I eat more, exercise more... Hoping to be fit fit guy.. hehe.. School starts next week, I guess life will be busy and hard after next week...

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When it comes to lonely night, I am grateful tat GOD has given me someone to miss and I feel so blessed to love and be loved....Thanks for being my motivation, inspiration and part of my dreams. Next GOALs: Survive the COLD, Pass my First Year with flying color, learn something new, earn another extra 1000 and bring laopo go travelling.... Wohooo~~~ Plan, injecting efforts, and pray for success.... Jia You my dear.. I love you...

New Journey

Now I've chosen the road less taken, to travel to another country, and left everyone I love and everything I treasure in another place. Solo.. hmm.. dono... Reached UK yesterday, endured 18 hours 7 hours of flight from KL to Dubai... Most of d time I was sleeping, until the flight attendants woke me up to eat my breakfast and breakfast( had 2 meals, dono wat I should call them coz I was confused wif d time). Met a guy named Johnson during the flight, and told me that he worked in department of education in scotland before, studied in curtin sarawak malaysia oso... bla bla... And I was too tired to talk to him tat time.... din catch wat he told me mostly and only replied yes or no... lol... Dubai airport, a fascinating place, saw many branded shops and 2 luxury sports cars to be won.. Din take a picture of them, too tired. Saw many ppl sleeping along all the departure gates. Guess they were as tired as me waiting for their flights. Endured another 8 hours to newcastle, almost died in the flight. coz I was too tired, too dizzy, too cold... and BORED. then, took 40mins metro from newcastle to sunderland. Quite a lovely place. Its autumn now, the temperature is quite similar to kundasang in d midnight. The wind is icy cold, and the water is freezing if u din on d heater. DAmn.... Don feel like bathing liao... LOL...

每次你任性时 说的一些话

你知道那有多么伤人吗

而我顶多却气个三分钟吧

最后依然体贴的送你回家

《〈〈〈〈〈〈〈〈〈

有时想如果我不是一直让

你也许会懂得学着体谅

但是我完全无法 硬着心肠

做的让你有一点难过失望

总觉得有疼你的责任

要你是最快乐最单纯的人

因为你让我的心变得丰盛

原来不奢望的变成可能

总觉得有疼你的责任

要你做最轻松最自然的人

我想不遮掩也是一种信任

爱的了解包容才算爱得完整

随性的动词，名词，代词跟形容词

0% 或 100%
细心
体谅
人球
光说不练
罪恶
疲态
关心
自私
自娱
自嘲
甜蜜
苦
爱慕
疼惜
伤心
失望
笑
等待
期望
信任
快乐
满足
瞬间
珍惜
哭
同感身受
体会
明白
表白
分享
拥抱
限度
埋没
责怪
分担
对与错
哑巴
黄连
吻
闷
无聊
想念
牵挂
我
谁
未来
原谅
无奈
动脑
行动
计划
贴心
平地
忍耐
理所當然
得來不易

Times Of Your Life

Good morning, yesterday

You wake up and time has slipped away

And suddenly it's hard to find The memories you left behind

Remember, do you remember

The laughter and the tears

The shadows of misty yesteryears

The good times and the bad you've seen

And all the others in between

Remember, do you remember The times of your life

Reach back for the joy and the sorrow

Put them away in your mind

The mem'ries are time that you borrow

To spend when you get to tomorrow

Here comes the saddest part

The seasons are passing one by one

So gather moments while you may

Collect the dreams you dream today

Remember, will you remember

The times of your life

Starting to Love Blogging

Time flies. Another week gone. There are too much to remember that sometimes we may forget the happy ones. So, blog to record your happy and sad days. One day, when you are sad, u'll smile to recall the happy days, when you are happy, u'll be more grateful tat you've walked through those sad days.




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Went to KL on 1st Sept, met Annie and her cousin at Sibu airport. I was embarrassed by my own stupid act to kacau kacau her and make others stare at us with different eyes in the plane.. Paiseh LA.... hohoho. Reach KL around 2pm. It took us one hour to reach Sungai Wang Hotel which is near Sungai Wang(lol, noob description) from KLIA. Well, the facilities are quite good, gt TV with Wah Lai Toi and HBO channel only, small fridge centrally controlled air-con and a very old bathroom. After we settled down, we went to BB Plaza which was 3 mins walk( i think less than tat). Then, when I was asking to go to Sg Wang, my sis knocked my head coz we were in it. BB and Sg Wang are connected and I dono about it. Shopping was fun, until the goods tat we bought became heavier and heavier and I'm the one who was carrying them!! Until 6pm, my sis de friend Evelyn joined us in the shopping spree. After we had our dinner, we switched our battlefield to Times Square. It was around 745pm when my job became more difficult bcoz all I did was following them and waited for my sis to hunt for her shoes... Until 930, she finally decided to stop bcoz it was quite late liao and she bought two new pairs of shoes. We lost our way back to the hotel coz I was too tired to think and she just walked with her "6th senses". Luckily we met a guard in front of Low Yat Plaza and asked for direction.. So xia soi.. lolx... she was very panic tat time... hahaha.... We counted the goods tat we hunted down and those we bought for our beloved. Later when I finally got my rest, my sis refused to sleep pula. Coz the air-con was super duperly cold and the hungry ghost festival was near. When she refused to sleep, I canot sleep.. Then, things gone worse when we found out tat our Digi line was almost zero in tat room. Sometimes, call just got cut off and messages couldn't be sent or received... Sad.... Eventually, she was just too tired to keep herself awake and fall asleep. Thanks GOD. Next morning, we woke up at 530am, called for a taxi and went to Wisma MCA for my UK Visa. We were the first to reach there but the damn guard there doesn't let us upstairs to queue for our number. He said we had to wait till 8am.. lol.. Luckily, there's wireless available here and I was on msn at 645 and found out tat Chee Ling was up dy, and he said he was so early just to study? Around 715, we saw a family went upstairs but the guards weren't stopping them... No principle de guards, change their minds so easily... After application of my visa was done, we went back to Sg Wang to shop again. Now, it's my turn to payback coz my sis oredi teman me to search for things for my beloved. Spent the rest of the day carrying, commenting and following my sis buying things for her bf... Lol... The rest of the night was a boring one, coz we took our time to bite the meatless chicken wings in our room.. lol..... On the 3rd, we woke up at 430, packing and leaving the hotel. Went to KLIA at 530. My sis vomitted after she arrived at the airport coz the Taxi Driver was a very " good" driver. I was alright becoz I wasn't awake on the way to airport. I was amused by the self checking in machine and touch screen thingy at the airport. I wanted to act like a retarded 5 year old child but after I think twice, for my sis's sake, I resisted my "childishness" deep inside and completed my check-in normally. haha... I took the flight to Miri while my sis went back to Sibu... Glad to see my old friends who came to pick me up at the airport... they have nt changed, still remained cool, humor, and smart.. Spent two days in Miri, seeing my friends and helped out for the Geology Day thingy. And very sorry for those friends who I din get to meet them coz I was busy with my "business"... Hehe..



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My dear laopo:

Leaving Miri this time is harder than I thought. When your best friend asked: "How much your like her?"... Hmm, I was speechless, coz it is a feeling in your heart which I could not decribe by words, so I brought them out through my actions. There are still so much words kept in my mind and yet Your smile melts my heart, I was speechless tat night. . Trying to empty my mind to keep my tears from rolling down.......Hmmm, did I succeed? The morning I was about to leave, it rained cats and dogs when I woke up. So, I prayed to GOD saying: Please, please GOD, subside the rain so that U can drive safely back and forth, so that we do nt have say goodbye in rain. It did happened. Moral of the story: GOD answers every sincere prayers, please pray for me as I'll pray for u too. And very thanks for your words, they've given me much courage and strength to pursue my dreams and I'll try the very best of me to bring back you happiness.

See with your eyes

Listen with your ears

Feel it with your heart

"Do not smell my smelly body"

And carve the important ones inside your heart.

Thanks for everything, again I received more than expected.

~Still Loving U wearing Skirts~

Thanks, my frenzzz

After 4 days of turmoil, finally everything is set. I've gt all the documents I need, what I have to do now is wait for the time to come, apply for visa, then all done. Never thought the process will be so troublesome and tiring.. I seriously lack of sleep and don't get enuf rest. Hope that I won't get sick...
Yesterday, was a normal day.. Until nite time.... Roger called and say: U eng bo? Come wilson to wilson's house.. We have a farewell party for U.. Wah... so happy and touched.. Reach there around 930pm, saw ming hao n wilson busy burning the charcoal. The rest ( Shirley, Grace, Roger) preparing the chicken wings, chicken butt<<<, pork and beef for barbecuing. Tony the manager barbecue everything, and he has great skill, no scorched chicken wings nor hot dogs were found.. haha.. Ah Tong, Ah Hua n Ah Yew = the waiters, serving everyone else. Double Colins were there to entertain us= joking, talking craps and to eat.. haha.. Wilson sponsored Absolute Vodka and Gordon Bleu tat night. And I finally found out why a bottle of Gordon Bleu costs rm398 while Vodka and Chivas costs only rm50 to rm70. Both the cheaper liquors we canot drink them pure, they must be mixed with either coke or sprite. But Gordon Bleu, it smells nice, no burning sensation when u drink it pure. End of the night, I was numb again. Ming Hao, tony and colins ran home early. Ah Hua slept like a pig, and Ah Yew vomitted everything in his stomach out like last time.... MUAHAHAHAHA... Luckily, Roger and I still able to drive. Roger drove Ah Yew's car and sent everyone home. I had to follow him to make sure everyone is ok. I was the last to reach home, and luckily, din meet any police on the way or else, I'll be in deep shit. Thank GOD for guiding me home safely while I can sense my hands and legs numb and nearly fall asleep when I sent Roger home. How dangerous was tat... Tat reminds me of a sentence: DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE, BCOZ U'LL SPILL YOUR DRINK.... HEHE.. Reach home around 3am, and LUCKILY, i din wake anybody else ( my parents) or I'll be dead meat.. lolx.
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Today, the gathering was disappointing for me. I reached Enjoy Cafe at 1230 pm though people told me the gathering was actually 12pm. When I reach there, only 3 ppl were there. The rest? Arrived at 1240pm.. LOL... So, tat proved that I knew my friends well because they'll always be late for around 30mins when they asked for a gathering or some other activities. Then, dad called and asked me to drive the car home bcoz the other car rosak. He fetched me back to Enjoy Cafe and went to do his stuff. It took almost an hour when I was back to the cafe and everyone else had finished their food and drinks. The only activity left was taking pictures.. lol... Quite disappointed becoz I failed to update my friends news while we could barely meet anymore... Haiz... Worse of all, my father forgot to fetch me and he kept me waiting at the freaking restaurant for almost one hour.. Wtf.. I nearly fainted waiting for him there.....
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Hell Ya~~

I wonder why do people think about themselves first before they think about others. Maybe I should too.. coz I maybe happier that way... Thinking about how u people will be then? Do others care about how you feel or what you will be?
Went to Fu Yuan Methodist Church's 40th anniversary dinner last nite.... 30 waiters were hired( including me) to serve 160 tables consists of 10 people each. = 1600 people? Worked from 500pm to 1am. Walked back and forth in d Scared Heart Hall which is d size of 10 badminton courts about 100 times I think, serving the food and the needs of every people there. After the dinner, we moved all the plastic chairs to the backstage.. Of all 1600, I moved at least 200 chairs and moved the damn heavy wood table onto the lorry. If you have been observing, in every place that we work, there will be people ular ular (ing). Some will just stand there and watch you work and will only move after you asked, some chit-chatting, some hide in the toilet and most importantly, they'll just watch you working you ass off and won't give a helping hand.. Earned RM30 one night, and I deserved every cents. For those who didn't help at all, why do you people dare to stretch your hands and ask for the pay at the end of the night? shame on you people.. GOD bless you and your "hard-earned" money.

Slept at 3am and woke up at 9am. My dear dear Global Agent, Kristy... I really hate you for putting me behind my schedule and plans. Why don't you give me my offer letter earlier while it arrived long time ago and while you already knew that I canot enter University of Sunderland last friday and why you didn't call and inform? I hate you. But what can I do? Drove around whole day, to get my passport, to transfer money , to pay my school fees and when confirmed the date to go KL to do visa, Malaysia Airlines website down just when I got back home to book the tickets. It was down for 10 hours!! wtf...

My dear family members, I'm here today to care for your needs, drove you people around whenever you asked to, buy whatever you ask, do whatever you do for about a month. And izzit very over to ask for a four days break for you people that you people nid to bom me gao gao? Have you people care how I feel deep inside my heart?

Ding Dong

Blink blink @.@>>> what date is today? End of August dy? But memories of past few months still remain fresh... Like everything just happened yesterday.... Wondering what I have contributed to anyone around me... Damn.... I'm just like a parasite in d family.. Haiz Haiz...
Spent average 5 hours on dota per day, 1 hour eating, 1 hour fb, 3 hours tv 1 hour on beloved, 2 hours yamcha, 1 hour driving, 8 hours sleep, another 2? I'm out of earth...
But every of these days, I'm grateful to have my beloved to share my feelings, to talk , to laugh, to complain... etc..Thanks GOD for everything... but please forgive me GOD, for not going to church every Sunday...

To Laopo:
Angrying= Punishing yourself with mistakes that others commit.
You can't control people's thought, act and what they say. So, do not judge who and how you should be because of some people's stupid act and thought. You are who you are and you should be. Brenda Yap Fang Fang whom I love so much: Kind, loving, helpful, adorable beautiful, innocent, hot hot and most importantly LOUD.
For me, I treat people who treated me badly as nice as I can... Coz : karma..
Today, if ppl throw a stone at you and you pick up the stone and throw back, isn't you as NCAA(no class at all) as them? Believe, someday, they'll be crashed by boulders, just matter of time. Karma>> you reap what you sow<<
In conclusion, BE HAPPY and you can be, you willl be and you SHOULD BE...hook small finger, chop in d thumb ?....

~End of preach~

忍

When everything goes out of your plan, that means GOD doesn't like your plan.
When your plan doesn't keep up with the changes, then change your plan.（当计划赶不上变化，那就改变计划吧~）
Ppl say, hundreds of "ren" can become gold（百忍成金），see how much I can earn today~~
Thanks for d taught ya, my dear dear~~

~忍~

钱不够用~~

Kns punya toto and magnum.. buy wat number, tat number wont come out d... so pek chek... Grrr... ZzzzZzzz...
Money money money... come come come....
I need you badly~~ Phew..... rm50 blown away... but earn leh... so much harder...
I hav a dad, who doesnt give any money when I'm home, and when I'm damn broke and he doesn't want to giv any cents... Lol... Moreover, when I wanna find a part time job, he don't allow pula.... lol... So, I'll use my remaining ringgit to gamble big one... hahaha.. quite stupid huh?
Today is just another day when I receive early morning message from my laopo to wake me up for 2 minutes to look at the message and then *peng*, back to sleep.. =P
Today is just another day when I used to sit in front of my com to rot and spoil my eyes and backbone... My back is getting more painful for sitting at wrong pose for long time everyday.. Hope there will be no long term side effect later.....
Today is just another day that I have to drive my sis around to get things done....receiving parcels from post office, buy some kueh kueh to eat, buy TOTO every wed, sat and sun.. Omg... ADDICTED..
Today, i woke up shocked to hear my mom's stomach had swollen.... Drove her to d specialist hospital but doc said she was ok... Paid rm50 for consultation fee... I realised doc are so rich becoz of innocent patients like us~~ Talked for 15 mins nia.. Haiz..

Today, i realised i have so few friends in sibu now to talk to... Limteh with ming hao alone at Bandung... coz canot find anymore friends liao... And realised my life is so miserable... We chit-chatted for 3 hours... <<<>> talked about past, now, and future.... How wonderful our life were when we were in secondary school, updated myself about what's happening around with my friends... And most of them oredi have girlfriend?? Neh, this one with this lo, that with that lo...SHOCKING　Ｎｅｗｓ：Mr J, who gt d best SPM result in our school ( description: not so tall, wear spec, u noe la, those kind of ppl who only know study de looK) has a gf... LOL... no offence... but, that's fast, future DOC.....hahahah..
Listened to many ba gua, wat happened around, who else owned a DT(dao tao in foochow means 2nd wife), Ming Hao's point of view about boys and girls relationship... Hrmm.. I just realised something... something that only time can tell in future.....
Sorry that I canot call these few nights coz phone no credit liao...canot borrow mom's phone liao coz last time I used it, it costs rm30++ for a single call to my laopo for 2 hours.. She gone crazy d... But this is d situation I have to get used to when I leave Malaysia, when I canot listen to my laopo's voice or message to her everyday, everynight... But I think my laopo won't miss my ugly voice and face so much la.. so, nvm lo....
Haiz Haiz... Miss Miss.....

~I'm So Hollow~

Chapter？？

恋爱，在感情上，当你想征服对方的时候，实际上已经在一定程度上被对方征服了。

首先是对方对你的吸引，然后才是你征服对方的欲望。

我讨厌

我讨厌~
我开始讨厌~
我讨厌我的无知~
我讨厌自己的无能~
我讨厌家人对我的不信任~
我讨厌自己不是这么的完美~
我讨厌自己无法改变事实的无助感~
我讨厌最快乐的时光总是飞快地流失~
我讨厌自己无法总是能够带给别人欢笑~

我很“显”。。。
给我多些时间。。。
我想改变。。。。
我要改变。。。。
我能改变。。。。

~希望一切安好~

爱得更简单- Chapter 3

在生活中任何小地方，寻求属于自己的快乐与感动。

学习让自己过得快乐，也是爱对方的一种方式。-----《爱来爱去》

Just another Day~

Today i was supposed to tapau Kampua for my aunty and sis... Coz mama still in d bed.. Woke up at 930am and found out they oredi cooked mee for themselves le>> So paiseh~~ I : I promise I'll wake up early 2molo to tapau for u ppl *finger cross* =P
Well, so many housework for me and sis today.. which made me regretting for not helping mom with her housework before she was sick. Boil water> sweep the floor outside> sweep living room> wash dishes> feed the cats and dog>> bath AhBi~~>> bla bla bla.. Maybe we should hire Indon maid then.. haiz...
Drove my sis around to buy groceries.... then have to come back and bring my aunt go cut her hair... ZzzZZzzz... Tired~~ Spent my night Dotaing, Facebooking and photoshoping d pictures =D.. hehe.. Me likey it~~ muahaha.....

To my dear Dada:
Do not feel sad when you miss me... Coz I'm happy everytime i think about you....
Be happy coz I am still alive and kicking..
Be happy coz I am missing you too
Be happy coz LOVE has brought us together...
Be happy coz U don't have to see my ugly face everyday
Be happy coz U don't have to smell my sweaty shirt everyday
Be happy coz U don't have to smell my bad breath everyday
Be happy coz U don't have any reason to be sad...
My existence isn't to make U sad... I want you to be happy, always, like I'm happy becoz of U.
My body might have left the place where you are now, but my mind is still with you, now and always....( err, do i talk like I died liao? choi)
I'm just leaving temporarily, preparing, to improve myself, to make you happier..
Give me some time, what you have to do is to wait~
Wait for the time to come...
Have you smiled today becoz of me? I did bcoz of U.. Kalau belum lagi.. Smile big big O~~ =D
Btw, while we are having the same time zone, please tell me how are you each day and GOOD NIGHT before U sleep everyday k?

~Miss and Worried~

Happy Days =)

7 days 6 nights in Miri:
These days are the happiest days I have ever had in Miri... First time I was so excited to reach Miri to meet my friends and beloved..... Was supposed to giv U surprise by hugging you from behind and covering your eyes... But suddenly all ppl came out from car, village and gathered around there... Err.. Nvm then... lolx.... Went to lecture, glad to see some familiar faces(old friends) and new ones too ...

2nd day
Sleeping whole day and was brought to d CSS gathering suddenly....It was four years ago since d last time i attended this kind of gathering.... I missed d old times suddenly, when I used to attend gatherings and going to church on Sunday.... After the gathering, the messages came:Where are you? Where is my Chivas? Bring her back ok?
I brought myself and Chivas home but not Dada... Sigh.... I minum till my hands and legs were numb and the world was spinning... But those crazy guys dried the whole bottle of Chivas and went to mee stall to buy beer again =.=" Useless hao jie peng early and slept like a pig... lol...

3rd Day
Miraculously, I woke up at 10am when ppl asked to play badminton at 11am. Sat infront of the door listening to music and watching the rain fall... Again, it was form 3 when I last played badminton..... Doing it again~~~bringing the old memories back... It was fun.... Then, watched movie for the 3rd time in Miri... honestly, I wasn't paying attention to the movie for the most of d time coz I was thinking about the person whom I was holding hands with~ =)
Went dinner~~ Went to tanjung beach.... everything went well as planned except the drawing thingy... Surely I'm not born to draw coz I can't even draw a symmetrical heart or a beautiful heart for my laopo~~ Really sorry but I've tried my best...

4th day
Everyone missed the church this morning... LOL.... We all sat in MingHao's room talking crap~ for whole morning till afternoon and went eat lunch....Washed my clothes and slept~ Spent whole afternoon with Dada~~ Night? Forgot what I've done but it was boring for sure~~

5th day
Went to school to get my letter of completion~ Then suddenly was told tat some1's tayar pancit pula.. Decided to help since my laopo had whole day class and I'm free~~ Drove 10km/h to senadin and asked d person to check.... When he took out d tyre, the cause for the tyre to puncture could clearly be seen... 2 screws in middle of tyre~~ LOL~~ HanLung and me laughed till peng~~ Surely offended someone and they nailed the screws in... lol... Dad actually called and asked me to go home... But I didn't. Looking at the timetable, 2molo we'll have whole day..
Celin sent a message asking to play frisbee, but I decided nt to go bcoz I wanted to fetch my laopo from school... Sorry that I didn't say goodbye to my frisbee friends for the last time.. Hope you ppl won't forget me... Went Mr Ho for dinner... the foods= NICE but my stomach was too small to finish everthing on d table... Sad~~ Wasted some of d puddings....

6th day
Woke up very very early before anyone else. Every second seemed to be extremely precious... Capturing every happy moments I could with my phone~~ I did not know where did the courage came from and I just hugged and kissed my laopo naturally~~ I never hold my mom or sis's hands or hugged or kissed them.. I think the power is from deep of my heart.. Its called love i think.. In exchange, I was punched and bitten... I wish the time would freeze at the moment but it doesn't..Sigh.. Anyway, the effects could be felt all day long =P ... Dono why I could smile when touching the injured parts of my body.. The pain isn't pain~~ They became source of happiness before the wounds were healed.. Love Bites wasn't painful at all =). Seriously, I've tried my best to pose and giv my most handsome look in d pictures liao. But what to do when I hav a ugly face? Sad~~U noe y I hugged you for such a long time? Becoz I was trying hard to hold my tears from rolling down.. I hate this kind of feeling.. And Laopo!! I've spend 3 days 2nights to prepare the little bottles for you.. Remember the nights that I didn't called before I came Miri? I was busy bcoz of it.. DO NOT CINCAI OPEN!!! PLEASE OBEY D RULES!! OPEN ACCORDING TO D MONTHS AND DATES MENTIONED!!
Spent whole day with my laopo and I forgot to say goodbye to my friends in Miri.. How could I? Hope everyone will still remember me and forgive me leh~~
I hardly slept... so that I won't be conscious during the 8 hours journey back... U noe y la.. I like to cry bah~~

7th Day
Woke up at 523am.. Walking around packing my stuff..... And it is such a nice view to see my Laopo wearing skirts... thank you for being such a pretty and nice girl now and always.. Just loving you much~~ My TMD eyes just couldn't control the tears... Just sat down in d bus nia, tears rolled down... But this time, i smiled and cried at the same moment... It was tears of happiness... I missed you when I was sleeping too..
This time, I'm not sad bcoz I noe that we'll meet again soon. Very soon...

Thank you again for giving me more than enough.... Though you thought that u hav not given me anything... =)

~Liking the love bites~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-4mtCuQhkq0

D for Dulan

NO line connection for 2 days =Dulan
NO more phone credit = Dulan
Not getting replies = Dulan

I started to wonder..................
Well, so hard to get online coz no line at home... then?
wat style o? Zzz
Laptop's battery dying.. Going home soon...........
Sigh..
Tired....

爱得更简单-吴若权 著

This book has been buried in the bookshelf for years. Last night, somehow, it appeared on the floor. I don't understand this wat the writer is talking about when I read it four years ago.
On the cover, it says:
简单，是检验爱情品质的客观标准;
复杂艰难的感情难以地久天长。
爱情，因为简单，没有负担！
U understand bo?
If you don't, don't worry.... Coz I only understand half half nia...
But the sentence seems pro, so I put it to let you think..
The half I get is:
虽然我的生活平淡无奇,
有了你，一切都变得多姿多彩.
一句爱你，一句想你，都能让我如此心暖,
对你，我没有猜疑,
只想告诉你，谢谢你，叶芳芳小姐~
让我的生活如此简单快乐.
我也想你哟。。

Even cat can be "lost"

Hrmm.. something's missing today... one of XiaoHei's children was missing...
We only realised that when a heavy rain came tiz afternoon...
XiaoHei was quiet 2day, not jumping in and out of d house as frequently as she used to be...
She was following my sis around tiz morning when she was walking outside d house 2day. And d heavy rain revealed everything. Two of XiaoHei's children were hiding in d box during the rain, me and my sis were looKing for another one but to no avail. Then my mom suddenly said she gave the kitten to our neighbour tiz morning and me and my sis were like: Huh? Y so suddenly?
But mom seems din pakat well with my dad and when my sis asked dad, he honestly told us tat the kitten died because it was crashed by d washboard tiz morning. Wow, tragic accident.. XiaoHei probably canot understand that her child has gone.. forever.. It is sad to see her still looking for the child around...
2nite, I'm kinda lost and feel outdated when ppl are talking about their new classmates and I started to wonder.. errr... where am I? What am I doing?? Err..... lolx...
And Dada, you have no idea how much I wish I could hug you in my arms 2nite.... Be strong baby... Be strong... There are some changes in life that we couldn't change. But life goes on, what we can do is choose to live our life happily or with sad feelings. But you only get to live once right? Why choose to be sad about things we can't change then? Be happy my love.. Be happy~~ =)

First Blood

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