1st Interview

1st job interview today. Prepared at 1045 and found out both my cheap shoes bought at Sunderland are both right shoes. Shouldn't buy anything from closing down shop next time =(
Walked to town to buy new ones with my left leg wearing right shoe. Looks crippled coz head of the shoe twisted 45 degrees to the left on my left foot. LOL.
Managed to reach interview place on time but waited for interviewer for 1 hours plus cause himself was late for an hour. ZZ
Not a good week for me. In bad bad luck~
Hoping will be fine next week

忘记背后

主耶稣 我的生命一团糟
何以，我竭力做对 但我又跌到
想好好去做 偏偏又未做够好
承诺今天开始改过 说完又退步
怎祈祷 错失的才可弥补
何以 我每次做错总有你怀抱
很想走窄路 很希望变好
回望一生之中铺满了尘土

忘记我背后
遥望这标杆已在前头
或者又做错 不怕撑起来继续走
神赐我自由 从今一切不可变能够
这日未能做到别放手
别回望往日多少内疚
来到白昼。

可能吗 我怎可如此崇高
凭我血气最后也不够我达到
只等他带路 等他为你铺
无尽伤感于今天化作祈祷

忘记我背后
遥望这标杆已在前头
或者又做错 不怕撑起来继续走
神赐我自由 从今一切不可变能够
这日未能做到别放手
别回望往日多少内疚
来到白昼。

忘记我背后
朝着这标杆继续漫游
定睛十字架 不怕撑起来继续走
难过别泪流 耶稣今已称呼我朋友
这日未能做到别放手
别回望往日多少内疚
如今已得救

Sick

Why now?
I could barely breath.
I am afraid.
I couldn't focus.
I felt alone.
I wanna break free.
I shouldn't fall into this.
I hate myself.
Once, twice, thrice , never ending loop.
I think I deserved it.
Happiness is always short for me.
Here comes the reality to torture me.
No one have been through what I have been.
Don't say anything before you tried to step into my shoes.
I already did my best. I really did.
Give me of couple days and I'll stand firm like I used to be.
Used to the feelings, really hate it.
Counting my own blessings right now.
God decided this for me, I'll follow him with my heart.
Whatever the outcome is, I will survive the dark with Your light in front.

(Quoted Annie Ling 2011)