Thank You Dear

It was again a depressing morning when I woke up. Nth else to do, so I turned on the laptop and watched some drama. Was supposed to go to school, but "Bo feel". Skipped Engineering Maths seminar, Lecture and (English class<< dono for wat the insist me to take tiz class). Went to Gala in the afternoon. At first, me n my sis just thinking of collecting a stamp on a card from Gala Casino(after collecting 4 stamps, we will get a guaranteed win scratch card which will win us lots of great prizes). Then her bf followed, then it ended up with them gambling again.. They won 55 pounds from the slot machine.. LOL. But tat wasn't enuf to cover their previous night de loss: 180 pounds(they went out when I was about to sleep). Decided to walk around after tat. They brought me to Sunderland Muzeum, 3 floors, many interesting things inside. When we all wanted to go pee pee, the only toilet we could find was for disabled person one. When they were looking for the way to switch on the light, my sis bf accidentally pulled the red string, which was designed for the disabled person to seek for help when they had problems inside the toilet. The alarm RANG!! Just imagine a quiet surrounding with the ALARMMM!!. Luckily no one was around. A guard came and turned it off. LOL... Paisehhh.... Quickly, we escaped from the museum and went to the park nearby. It was such a lovely park with ducks swimming in the water, pigeons flying around, couples sitting on the chairs, and dogs running around. Went to the playground and met a lovely little girl. When we were cycling on the merry-go-round( have to cycle for the whole thing to rotate), she just came silently. We stopped and the little girl climbed onto the sit and joined our ride.... Wheeeee~~~ After 2 or 3 mins, her mother came, probably scared by bunch of crazy person like us, asking the little girl to go home. The little girl was reluctant to leave tat her mother gave to carry her in arms by force(the little girl grabbed the steering wheel tightly). Such a lovely girl who keeps me laughing coz her face was full of dried saliva and "pi sai"... hahahah......
Went to buy some vege and grapes. When eating those grapes, I realised something. Last time I bought some green grapes from the same shop, they were damn sweet. This time, I bought some red grapes from the same shop, I expected them to be as sweet as last time. But they just don't. Some sour, some bitter although they all look good. What I could do was to taste them one by one, to get the sweet ones.
Last time when I was studying in Miri, there were more sweet memories than the bitter ones. I had such awesome time with my friends and loved one. Now in a different place and enviroment, although it looks good, but everything I face now is bitter and sour one. I was down and disappointed coz I expect what I get will be as sweet as last time. But thousands of money has been invested. There are no any 2nd chance to turn back like last time. I have to take every responsibility and suffer the consequences of the wrong decision I've made. Taste the bitter and sour ones to find the sweet ones........
My dear Dada, I sincerely thank you for listening and sharing my loads. Just chatting and listening to your voice heals every sadness here. What can I do besides saying thank you x infinity and I love U x infinity..... I hope I can share yours tooo....

Here`s a verse you can always hold on to:"If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you." --John 15:7
Though it`s conditional, it`s still a wonderful giftyou can claim as God`s promise.God is faithful to hear your petitions. Pray is the key, faith unlocks every locked doors. ( From Facebook) =D

~Thank You Dear GOD and Dada)

F***ingly F***ed

Holy shit I am depressed like no other shit in this place. Totally f***ed up as I'm not interested in any of the lecture, I do not know why I'm studying it. F*** f*** zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZzZZzzZzZzzZZzz...
I felt so cheated here.......... things doesnt seem as good as told. I have d "chong dong" to hop onto a plane and go home. Now I miss miri.... Tiz is shittyly shit. Now I miss my friends.... Even miss my laopo more.. =(
I sincerely pray that a truck would knock me down, then somebody else will bring me home, dead or alive.


I wish one day you will miss me terribly that no matter how hard you look for me, you won't find me. Why? Because, I want you to miss me the way I'm missing you today.

EEEEmmmoooo

How the hell can I plunge myself into tiz piece of shit?
Am I in the right course?
Am I in the right place?
Am I being ignorant all the time?
Have I made the right decision?
Can studying abroad really bring a better and happier future?
What if I didn't listen to my parents at the first time?
What if I'm nt being so greedy at the first time?
What if I wasn't expecting too much?
What if I can foresee things?
But, what if never happens.
If it did happen, there are no words such as accidents, tragedies, and regret.
Tiz is life.
Life is just full of shit and ppl just keep on stepping on those shits.
Who can clean away those shits from me?

Expect no one and nothing better than what you have today, the higher the expectation, the greater the disappointment if things doesnt turn out right. Who knows what will happen 2molo?
Mayb worse, mayb better.

HOping the "emo~ness" is just bcoz of the new environment and the situation I'm trying to adapt to.

~Down and emo =( ~