Eyes cant see, ears cant hear but heart sees everything. Lord it seems I cant handle the wisdom You gave. Bless everybody else more than I do as I already have enough today.

主我向你呼求，虽然我知道我不配，求主你垂听我祷告。
带走我的忧伤，带走我的重担。

Life is getting tougher but my dreams seems to be closer in every step I take. I have committed my plans to my Lord and He has established it step by step. Still not knowing how my future looks like, but I feel good to be able to sacrifice for the one I love.
Still learning to forgive and forget, once the things I saw, I foreseen and going on.
I may not be perfect but still I am doing the best out of everything.
Where are my boundaries and limit? I will not be turning back. Not even once.

我不知道怎样祷告，
我不知道该说什么，
我没有很多时间，
所以，
我点燃着蜡烛，
将我拥有的什么，
将我拥有的时间，
将我拥有的自己，
我都把这些留给主，
当我离开这里的时候，这烛光还能继续照耀我的祈祷。
您明白我为谁祷告，请照顾她，让她能够坚强起来和能得到您的帮助，请减轻我的忧虑，提醒我为我所关顾的人祷告，让他们得到爱和照顾，感谢主，奉主命求。阿门。

So much emotional fluctuations this few weeks. It is the time of the year again. Hopefully the old loops will break. If it wasn't You who remind me to seek for you, I would have broken down inside out. I am just a simple man seeking for simple happiness. Have I asked too much? 

Ashamed of self. Foresee, seeing and saw. Stealth mode on.

God's Timing (Daily Bread, May 7)

For every matter there is a time and judgment. —Ecclesiastes 8:6


Maybe we need to be reminded that some things take time—God’s time. For instance, when the Israelites first left Egypt, God sent them on the long route to the Promised Land (Ex. 13:17-18). During that time He prepared them, taught them, and challenged them.
In our microwave world, we want everything done instantaneously. But sometimes that’s not God’s plan. Let’s seek God’s help and learn to accept His timing.

He does not lead me year by year,
Nor even day by day;
But step by step my path unfolds;
My Lord directs my way. —Ryberg

God’s timetable may move slowly, but it does move surely.

 

No matter what you are asking for:

He say yes and gives you what you want.

He says no and gives you something better.

He says wait and gives you the best.